It is just JAW DROPPING the way God works and synchronizes things in my life. I'm just... so gracious and in awe. I have never experienced the purest joy I currently am, until now.
I know I'm not insane. That I am pregnant. Or at least God is telling me now is the time to become pregnant. Ya, ya all can say I'm crazy. If I'm not already pregnant, I am having my IUD removed and it's bound to happen regardless, because I want to be "natural" again. I am welcoming this into my life. I am completely in love with the this man Brandon Huth, and I know we are to be married and live a very very very blessed and happy life together. We want a baby together, it's really all we talk about at this point. NOTHING is "easy" right now, NEVER has been. We're working our butts off, but we are BLESSED beyond measure. The Lord keeps our bills paid, keep food in our stomachs, provides for our needs in every way shape and form, and I know as far as certain things falling apart such as my car, multiple things in my apartment (dish washer, air conditioner, doors) , I know MUCH more is awaiting for us as long as I "wait and have patience" and I no longer live in fear of the "unknown", I walk each day in faith and certainty that God and the Angels are DIVINELY guiding me, every second of the day.
By Sept 2015 we will have a Earth friendly house in Coal Creek Canyon (or somewhere near by there) which we will obtain through Aquarian Real Estate. This home is where I will have plenty of space to have horses, my own organic chickens, a ORGANIC VEGETABLE GARDEN, totally "off grid" and energy efficient, and keeps "living" costs WAY low. . We will have a small backyard pond/water fountain, Jacuzzi/hot tub, Tree House, 7 rooms plus a "man cave" and office, and AMAZING kitchen. This home will cost me no more than between $7,000.00-$70,000. I will get back to being ONE with Nature (i miss the mountains. if i cannot live by the ocean i must be in nature) and working WITH it not against it! We will somehow (the means of which will be decided by God and I'm simply living life in faith!) come about on an abundance of money to get our home, new vehicles and kick off brandon's and my own business(s) that we want to manage by May 2015. Get everything in the works to leave Hands and Stone by my "1 year anniversary date" with them of January 31st 2015 (or if the universe directs, to buy out this business and manage it myself.) I will focus on my health and that of my children/family and for once be HEALTHY, not in pain all the time and ENJOYING LIFE, PLAYING, LAUGHING, LOVING. I already know sometime in November -January I will arrange to take a vacation with my family that will OPEN a TON of doors for us in some way. I am achieving this vacation throughWorldVentures, I have faith in this business and once I get my massage and healing practice going I WILL tell the world through the clients I bring in there about WorldVentures and its AMAZING opportunities.
This is my vision. What I am planting in the soil and expect to bloom in my life in the next year. All this is being achieved as i delve deeper into myself and purify that which is blocked. I am letting go and being rebirthed. Thursday there will be a new moon. New moons are an AMAZING energy to harness from. I will be going with my very good friend Ellie to Temple to Meditate and chant to ALL the names of GOD both feminine and masculine, and bubble up this energy of Love and joy I feel and send it out for the universe to boomarang right back at me exactly what I need to fulfill my Destiny here as a light conscious healer and spiritual teacher! I love my life and I will live it to the fullest each day that is given to me. I am so grateful and blessed. Doors are opening and there is boundless opportunity for me. I'm not taking it for granted for another second in my life. I won't GIVE UP just as the miracles are starting to appear!
As far as anyone who wants to say the "path" i am on is "wrong", and I'm not seeing the reality or real "truth" of things (fully based upon Christianity, which bare in mind, I am still walking in alignment with Jesus, he is my MAIN spirit guide, along with Archangel Michael and Raphael. It's THEIR love and that of God's that DRIVES me) The fact is... I am seeing the reality.This IS my truth and will BECOME my truth. I am CREATING this reality by BELIEVING it is happening RIGHT NOW. True hope and faith to the core creates BELIEF. BELIEF with an open heart and an open mind, creates miracles that spills into everyone's lives. Like Jesus I will take that which is given and create with it 100 fold. Having the gift of Alchemy is a true blessing especially in conjunction with the energy that is swarming around us right now. It's a year of letting go of the old and opening up to receive the new beginnings God has been WAITING to rain into our lives!
My Runes the other day made one thing very clear to me. Do not steer away from my quest as a Spiritual Warrior. Not to be brought down with negative thoughts, and fully allowing this breakthrough into my life, after all it's what's brought the abundance I am currently experiencing. So if you are going to preach to me about how I should "turn away" from this, please don't do so. You have absolutely no idea what you are talking about. Until you EXPERIENCE (which in time we ALL will be forced to) what I have, you know NOTHING. I KNOW NOTHING, but everyday am learning and gaining so much knowledge and wisdom not only for myself but others. That's what's amazing... the truth comes from connecting deeply, inwardly within your SELF.God is within each and every person, plant, animal around you, you must only search for it yourself and speak love into EVERYTHING. Be open to see that which you never thought would exist. Look deeper into the shadows to find the BEAUTY in life!
RUNE READING Oct 15th 2014
4 Runes
(I consulted the runes regarding a friends negative reaction to my spiritual awakening story or post, and her need to fill me with fear against the truth i know i have already received. Truth i know is not evil or "wrong". These runes put me back into the correct awareness of the situation and helped me balance and reverting back out of that fearful state that i refuse to fall back into)
4 Runes
(I consulted the runes regarding a friends negative reaction to my spiritual awakening story or post, and her need to fill me with fear against the truth i know i have already received. Truth i know is not evil or "wrong". These runes put me back into the correct awareness of the situation and helped me balance and reverting back out of that fearful state that i refuse to fall back into)
(7) Initiation: Perth - Something Hidden, A Secret Matter
A hieratic or mystery Rune pointing to that which is beyond our frail manipulative powers. Perth is on the side of Heaven, the Unknowable, and has associations with the phoenix (i have CLOSE connections to phoenix's, always have so this resonated deeply with me. having lived a life like a phoenix. being burned yet i rose again out of the ashes), that mystical bird which consumes itself in the fire and then rises from its own ashes. It's ways are secret and hidden. Powerful forces of change are at work here. Yet what is achieved is not easily or readily shared. After all, becoming whole, the means of it, is a profound secret. On the side of the earthly or mundane, there may well be surprises, gains or rewards that you did not anticipate. On the side of human nature, this Rune is symbolized by the flight of the Eagle (I also have a very close connection with Eagles, I view them as a representation of FREEDOM and beauty. BIRDS in particular keep "popping" up as "signs" for me. I think it's because I'm learning to FLY), soaring flight free from entanglement, lifting yourself above the endless ebb and flow of ordinary life to acquire broader vision- all this is indicated here. Another of the Cycle Runes, Perth sands at the heart of Initiation. NOTHING EXTERNAL MATTERS HERE, EXCEPT AS IT SHOWS YOU ITS INNER REFLECTION. This Rune is concerned with the deepest stratum of your being, the bedrock on which your destiny is founded. For some, Perth means experiencing a death. In need be, let go of everything, no exceptions, no exclusions. Nothing less than renewal of your spirit is at stake when you draw this Rune
A hieratic or mystery Rune pointing to that which is beyond our frail manipulative powers. Perth is on the side of Heaven, the Unknowable, and has associations with the phoenix (i have CLOSE connections to phoenix's, always have so this resonated deeply with me. having lived a life like a phoenix. being burned yet i rose again out of the ashes), that mystical bird which consumes itself in the fire and then rises from its own ashes. It's ways are secret and hidden. Powerful forces of change are at work here. Yet what is achieved is not easily or readily shared. After all, becoming whole, the means of it, is a profound secret. On the side of the earthly or mundane, there may well be surprises, gains or rewards that you did not anticipate. On the side of human nature, this Rune is symbolized by the flight of the Eagle (I also have a very close connection with Eagles, I view them as a representation of FREEDOM and beauty. BIRDS in particular keep "popping" up as "signs" for me. I think it's because I'm learning to FLY), soaring flight free from entanglement, lifting yourself above the endless ebb and flow of ordinary life to acquire broader vision- all this is indicated here. Another of the Cycle Runes, Perth sands at the heart of Initiation. NOTHING EXTERNAL MATTERS HERE, EXCEPT AS IT SHOWS YOU ITS INNER REFLECTION. This Rune is concerned with the deepest stratum of your being, the bedrock on which your destiny is founded. For some, Perth means experiencing a death. In need be, let go of everything, no exceptions, no exclusions. Nothing less than renewal of your spirit is at stake when you draw this Rune
(14) Opening: Kano - Fire Torch
This is the Rune of Opening and renewed clarity, of dispelling the darkness that has been shrouding some part of your life. You are free now both to receive gifts and to know the joy of non-attached giving. Kano is the Rune for the morning of activities, for seriousness, clear intent and concentration, all of which are essential at the beginning of any endeavor. One of the 13 Cycle Runes, the protection offered by Kano is this: THE MORE LIGHT YOU HAVE, THE BETTER YOU CAN SEE WHAT IS TRIVIAL AND OUTMODED IN YOUR OWN CONDITIONING. In relationships, there can now be a mutual opening up which you may trigger and set in motion through your awareness that the light of understanding is once again available to you both. Recognize that while on the one hand you are limited and dependent, on the other you exist at the perfect center where the harmonious and beneficent forces of the universe merge and radiate. You ARE that center. Simply put, if you have been operating in the dark, there is now enough light to see that the patient on the operating table is yourself.
This is the Rune of Opening and renewed clarity, of dispelling the darkness that has been shrouding some part of your life. You are free now both to receive gifts and to know the joy of non-attached giving. Kano is the Rune for the morning of activities, for seriousness, clear intent and concentration, all of which are essential at the beginning of any endeavor. One of the 13 Cycle Runes, the protection offered by Kano is this: THE MORE LIGHT YOU HAVE, THE BETTER YOU CAN SEE WHAT IS TRIVIAL AND OUTMODED IN YOUR OWN CONDITIONING. In relationships, there can now be a mutual opening up which you may trigger and set in motion through your awareness that the light of understanding is once again available to you both. Recognize that while on the one hand you are limited and dependent, on the other you exist at the perfect center where the harmonious and beneficent forces of the universe merge and radiate. You ARE that center. Simply put, if you have been operating in the dark, there is now enough light to see that the patient on the operating table is yourself.
(13) Harvest: Jera - Fertile Season, One Year
A rune of beneficial outcomes, Jera applies to any activity or endeavor to which you are committed. Be aware, however, that no quick results can be expected. A span of time is usually involved; hence the key words "One Year," symbolizing a full cycle before the reaping, the harvest or deliverance. You have prepared the ground and planted the seed. Now you must cultivate with care. To those whose labor has a long season, a long coming to term, Jera offers encouragement of success. Know that the outcomes is in the keeping of Providence and continue to persevere. Remember the old story about the farmer who was so eager to assist his crops that he went out at night and tugged on the new shoots. There is no way to push the river; equally you cannot hasten the harvest. Be mindful that patience is essential for the recognition of your own process which, in its season, leads to the harvest of the self.
A rune of beneficial outcomes, Jera applies to any activity or endeavor to which you are committed. Be aware, however, that no quick results can be expected. A span of time is usually involved; hence the key words "One Year," symbolizing a full cycle before the reaping, the harvest or deliverance. You have prepared the ground and planted the seed. Now you must cultivate with care. To those whose labor has a long season, a long coming to term, Jera offers encouragement of success. Know that the outcomes is in the keeping of Providence and continue to persevere. Remember the old story about the farmer who was so eager to assist his crops that he went out at night and tugged on the new shoots. There is no way to push the river; equally you cannot hasten the harvest. Be mindful that patience is essential for the recognition of your own process which, in its season, leads to the harvest of the self.
(5) Strength: Uruz - Manhood, Womanhood, The Wild Ox
The Rune of terminations and new beginnings, drawing Uruz indicates that the life you have been living has outgrown its form. That form must die so that new energy can be released in a new form. This is the Rune of passage and, as such, part of the Cycle of Initiation. Positive growth and change, however, may involve a decent into the darkness as part of the cycle of perpetual renewal. As in nature, this progression consists of five aspects: death, decay, fertilization, gestation, rebirth. Events occurring now may well prompt you to undergo death within yourself. Since self change is never coerced-we are always free to resist- remain mindful that the new life is always greater than the old. Prepare, then, for opportunity disguised as loss. It could involve the loss of someone or something to which you have intense emotional bond, and through which you are living a part of your life, a part that must now be retrieved so you can live it out for yourself. In some way, that bond is being severed, a relationship radically changed, a way of life coming to and end. Seek among the ASHES (phoenix, synchronicity) and discover a new perspective and new strength. The ancient symbol for Uruz was the aurochs, a wild ox. When the wild od was domesticated - an immensely difficult task- it could transport heavy loads. Learn to adapt yourself to the demands of such a creative time. Firm principles attach to this Rune. At the same time humility is called for since in order to rule you must learn how to serve. Uruz puts you on notice that your soul and the universe support the new growth.
The Rune of terminations and new beginnings, drawing Uruz indicates that the life you have been living has outgrown its form. That form must die so that new energy can be released in a new form. This is the Rune of passage and, as such, part of the Cycle of Initiation. Positive growth and change, however, may involve a decent into the darkness as part of the cycle of perpetual renewal. As in nature, this progression consists of five aspects: death, decay, fertilization, gestation, rebirth. Events occurring now may well prompt you to undergo death within yourself. Since self change is never coerced-we are always free to resist- remain mindful that the new life is always greater than the old. Prepare, then, for opportunity disguised as loss. It could involve the loss of someone or something to which you have intense emotional bond, and through which you are living a part of your life, a part that must now be retrieved so you can live it out for yourself. In some way, that bond is being severed, a relationship radically changed, a way of life coming to and end. Seek among the ASHES (phoenix, synchronicity) and discover a new perspective and new strength. The ancient symbol for Uruz was the aurochs, a wild ox. When the wild od was domesticated - an immensely difficult task- it could transport heavy loads. Learn to adapt yourself to the demands of such a creative time. Firm principles attach to this Rune. At the same time humility is called for since in order to rule you must learn how to serve. Uruz puts you on notice that your soul and the universe support the new growth.
so there you go people. there's my weeks worth of wisdom to share with you all LOL. Plenty more to come.
I am dying to myself, being reborn as a full manifestation of light
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