Delving Into The "Under World" and "Heaven" with Hermes and the Trixters

10/29/2014
So this week God has guided me to research about Demon's, Angels, and a bunch of mythological stuff such as Greek, Roman, and Native American backgrounds/God's. These subjects have ALL been on my mind for quite some time and funny enough, God is synchronizing me in a way to research these things and come to some realizations of my own.

I decided to research tonight about the "health symbol" you see on many medical buildings or MMJ dispensaries. I'm trying to design a tattoo with the symbol and want to know the history behind what I'm designing before I have it put on my body. I know it represents health, that is why I want to use it. I didn't know what the snakes on the stick represented nor what the "history" behind this symbol was at all. I came to find out its called a Caduceus or the rod of Hermes)/Rod of Asclepius. Both these rods have a differentiation. The object in the symbol is called a Porta: a stick, called a rhabdomyolysis (stick) or skeptron (scepter), which is referred to[as a magic wand. Some early sources say that this was the bat he received from Apollo, but others question the merits of this claim. It seems that there may have been two canes, one of a shepherd's staff, as stated in the Homeric Hymn, and the other a magic wand, according to some authors His bat also came to be called kerykeion, the caduceus, in later times. Early depictions of the staff show it as a baton stick topped by a golden way that resembled the number eight, though sometimes with its top truncated and open. Later the staff had two intertwined snakes and sometimes it was crowned with a pair of wings and a ball, but the old form remained in use even when Hermes was associated with Mercury by the Romans (Funny they mention Mercury because my sign is ruled a lot by Mercury and Venus. Mercury just went out of retrograde on the 24th to allow communications to flow again). The presence of the snakes is because Hermes was traveling in Arcadia when he saw two snakes intertwined in battle. He put the caduceus between them and parted, and so said his staff would bring peace.The caduceus, historically, there appeared with Hermes, and is documented among the Babylonians from about 3500 BC. The two snakes coiled around a stick was a symbol of the god Ningishzida, which served as a mediator between humans and the mother goddess Ishtar or the supreme Ningirsu. In Greece itself the other gods have been depicted holding a caduceus, but it was mainly associated with Hermes. It was said to have the power to make people fall asleep or wake up, and also made peace between litigants, and is a visible sign of his authority, being used as a sceptre. This symbol was represented in doorways, possibly as an amulet of good fortune, or as a symbol of purification. The caduceus is not to be confused with the Rod of Asclepius, the patron of medicine and son of Apollo, which bears only one snake. The rod of Asclepius was adopted by most Western doctors as a badge of their profession, but in several medical organizations of the United States, the caduceus took its place since the 18th century, although this use is declining. After the Renaissance the caduceus also appeared in the heraldic crests of several, and currently is a symbol of commerce

In Acts 14, Paul the Apostle visited Lystra and was mistaken for Hermes, I found this interesting because "Paul" has been coming up for me, so I'm guessing i need to research the synchronicity as well, but i have enough to discuss tonight so I'll save that for later. I resonate with this "god", HERMES  is an Olympian god in Greek religion and mythology, son of Zeus and the Pleiad Maia. He is second youngest of the Olympian gods.Hermes is a god of transitions and boundaries. He is quick and cunning, and moves freely between the worlds of the mortal and divine, as emissary and messenger of the gods, intercessor between mortals and the divine, and conductor of souls into the afterlife. He is protector and patron of travelers, herdsmen, thieves,orators and wit, literature and poets, athletics and sports, invention and trade.In some myths he is a trickster, and outwits other gods for his own satisfaction or the sake of humankind. His attributes and symbols include the herma, the rooster and the tortoise, purse or pouch, winged sandals, winged cap, and his main symbol is the herald's staff, the Greek kerykeion or Latin caduceus which consisted of two snakes wrapped around a winged staff."Hermes" may be related to Greek ἑρμηνεύς hermeneus ("interpreter"), reflecting Hermes's function as divine messenger.The word "hermeneutics", the study and theory of interpretation, is derived from hermeneu. (NOTICE I AM DOING LOTS OF STUDY ON THEORY LATELY, NO WONDER GOD IS ENLIGHTENING ME ABOUT THIS SPIRIT GUIDE). He was also said to be the god of searches, and those who seek things lost or stolen. He's ruler of the gate of prophetic dreams, as the god of athletes, of edible roots, and of hospitality. He also said that Hermes had assigned each person his share of intelligence.The Homeric hymn to Hermes invokes him as the one "of many shifts (polytropos), blandly cunning, a robber, a cattle driver, a bringer of dreams, a watcher by night, a thief at the gates, one who was soon to show forth wonderful deeds among the deathless gods. Hermes, as an inventor of fire, is a parallel of the Titan Prometheus. In addition to the lyre, Hermes was believed to have invented many types of racing and the sports of wrestling and boxing, and therefore was a patron of athletes. He was a god of nature, farmers, and shepherds. It is also possible that since the beginning he has been a deity with shamanic attributes linked to divination, reconciliation, magic, sacrifices, and initiation and contact with other planes of existence, a role of mediator between the worlds of the visible and invisible. During the 3rd century BC, a communication between Petosiris (a priest) to King Nechopso, probably written in Alexandria c. 150 BC, states Hermes is the teacher of all secret wisdom's available to knowing by the experience of religious ecstasy.Due to his constant mobility, he was considered the god of commerce and social intercourse, the wealth brought in business, especially sudden or unexpected enrichment, travel, roads and crossroads, borders and boundary conditions or transient, the changes from the threshold, agreements and contracts, friendship, hospitality, sexual intercourse, games, data, the draw, good luck, the sacrifices and the sacrificial animals, flocks and shepherds and the fertility of land and cattle. In addition to serving as messenger to Zeus, Hermes carried the souls of the dead to Hades, and directed the dreams sent by Zeus to mortals

 
(Nov 3 10:30pm, came across this article about who i researched below http://www.bodymindsoulspirit.com/psychologist-carl-jung-on-spirituality/)
I have been guided to learning about Carl Jung while reading about Hermes. He is the one who came up with "synchronicity" and different aspects of spirituality that I'm learning about or experiencing, funny that im experiencing all this myself and learning about it at the same time. He was a Swiss psychiatrist and psychotherapist who founded analytical psychology.Jung proposed and developed the concepts of extroversion and introversion; archetypes, and the collective unconscious. His work has been influential in psychiatry and in the study of religion, philosophy, archaeology, anthropology, literature, and related fields. He was a prolific writer, though many of his works were not published until after his death.
The central concept of analytical psychology is individuation—the psychological process of integrating the opposites, including the conscious with the unconscious, while still maintaining their relative autonomy.Jung considered individuation to be the central process of human development.Jung created some of the best known psychological concepts, including the archetype, the collective unconscious, the complex, and synchronicity. The Myers-Briggs Type Indicator (MBTI), a popular psychometric instrument, was developed from Jung's theory of psychological types.
Jung saw the human psyche as "by nature religious" and made this religiousness the focus of his explorations.Jung is one of the best known contemporary contributors to dream analysis and symbolization.Though he was a practicing clinician and considered himself to be a scientist, much of his life's work was spent exploring tangential areas such as Eastern and Western philosophy, alchemy, astrology, and sociology, as well as literature and the arts. Jung's interest in philosophy and the occult led many to view him as a mystic, although his ambition was to be seen as a man of science. His influence on popular psychology, the "psychologization of religion", spirituality and the New Age movement has been immense.Carl Jung showed up under Hermes's "modern physiological interpretation" Hermes was guide to the underworld,the god of the unconscious, the mediator of information between the conscious and unconscious factors of the mind, and the archetypal messenger conveying communication between realms. Hermes is seemingly the guide for the inner journey.(I AM ON MY INNER JOURNEY) considered the gods Thoth and Hermes to be counterparts In Jungian psychology especially, Hermes is thought relevant to study of the phenomenon of synchronicity.

Hermes is ... the archetypal core of Jung's psyche, theories ...
In the context of psycho-therapy Hermes is our inner friendliness bringing together the disparate and perhaps isolated core elements of our selves belonging to the realms of the other gods;He does not fight with the other gods... it is Hermes in us who befriends our psychological complexes centered by the other gods.
He is for some identified as the archetype of healer and in ancient Greece he healed through magicIn the context of abnormal psychology, Jung considers Hermes the archetype for narcissistic disorder, but also lending the disorder a "positive" (beneficious) aspect, that is Hermes is both the good and bad of narcissism.Hermes is the protector of psychotherapy.Hermes is a god of the healing arts. In a consideration of all the roles Hermes was understood to have fulfilled in ancient Greece he is the god to be a guide or observer of transition. Jung also referred to Hermes as the Trickster and said \the trickster is the guide in total for the psycho therapeutic process.

Jung's work on himself and his patients convinced him that life has a spiritual purpose beyond material goals. Our main task, he believed, is to discover and fulfill our deep innate potential. Based on his study of Christianity, Hinduism, Buddhism, Gnosticism, Taoism, and other traditions, Jung believed that this journey of transformation, which he called individuation, is at the mystical heart of all religions. It is a journey to meet the self and at the same time to meet the Divine. Unlike Freud's objectivist worldview, Jung's pantheism may have led him to believe that spiritual experience was essential to our well-being, as he specifically identifies individual human life with the universe as a whole. Jung's ideas on religion gave a counterbalance to the Freudian skepticism on religion. Jung's idea of religion as a practical road to individuation has been quite popular, and is still treated in modern textbooks on the psychology of religion, though his ideas have also been criticized.

Jung recommended spirituality as a cure for alcoholism (ALCOHOLISM HAS RUN IN MY FAMILY, AND SOMETHING OUR FAMILY HAS PAIN AROUND!) and he is considered to have had an indirect role in establishing Alcoholics Anonymous. Jung once treated an American patient (Rowland Hazard III), suffering from chronic alcoholism. After working with the patient for some time and achieving no significant progress, Jung told the man that his alcoholic condition was near to hopeless, save only the possibility of a spiritual experience. Jung noted that occasionally such experiences had been known to reform alcoholics where all else had failed.Hazard took Jung's advice seriously and set about seeking a personal spiritual experience. He returned home to the United States and joined a First-Century Christian evangelical movement known as the Oxford Group (later known as Moral Re-Armament). He also told other alcoholics what Jung had told him about the importance of a spiritual experience. One of the alcoholics he brought into the Oxford Group was Ebby Thacher, a long-time friend and drinking buddy of Bill Wilson, later co-founder of Alcoholics Anonymous (AA). Thacher told Wilson about the Oxford Group, and through them Wilson became aware of Hazard's experience with Jung. The influence of Jung thus indirectly found its way into the formation of Alcoholics Anonymous, the original twelve-step program, and from there into the whole twelve-step recovery movement, although AA as a whole is not Jungian and Jung had no role in the formation of that approach or the twelve steps.The above claims are documented in the letters of Jung and Bill Wilson, excerpts of which can be found in Pass It On, published by Alcoholics Anonymous. Although the detail of this story is disputed by some historians, Jung himself discussed an Oxford Group member, who may have been the same person, in talks given around 1940. The remarks were distributed privately in transcript form, from shorthand taken by an attender (Jung reportedly approved the transcript), and later recorded in Volume 18 of his Collected Works, The Symbolic Life ("For instance, when a member of the Oxford Group comes to me in order to get treatment, I say, 'You are in the Oxford Group; so long as you are there, you settle your affair with the Oxford Group. I can't do it better than Jesus.'" Jung goes on to state that he has seen similar cures among Roman Catholics). Jung proposed that art can be used to alleviate or contain feelings of trauma, fear, or anxiety and also to repair, restore and heal.(I VERY MUCH BELIEVE THIS TOO, HENCE WHY I'M ARTISTIC) In his work with patients and in his own personal explorations, Jung wrote that art expression and images found in dreams could be helpful in recovering from trauma and emotional distress. He often drew, painted, or made objects and constructions at times of emotional distress, which he recognized as more than recreational

In researching what the "trickster" is, i resonated well with it. I am going through a re-birthing stage and the "trickster spirit" is essential to creation, to birth. In mythology, and in the study of folklore and religion, a trickster is a god, goddess, spirit, man, woman, or anthropomorphic animal who exhibits a great degree of intellect or secret knowledge and uses it to play tricks or otherwise disobey normal rules and conventional behavior.

The trickster deity breaks the rules of the gods or nature, sometimes maliciously (for example, Loki) (FUNNY LOKI IS MENTIONED, BECAUSE MY BOOK OF RUNES SPEAKS ABOUT LOKI ALL THE TIME, ALL THESE SYNCHRONICITY'S DIDN'T START BECOMING A DAILY THING UNTIL AFTER I GOT THIS BOOK AND MY RUNES!) but usually with ultimately positive effects (though the trickster's initial intentions may have been either positive or negative). Often, the bending/breaking of rules takes the form of tricks or thievery. Tricksters can be cunning or foolish or both; they are often funny even when considered sacred or performing important cultural tasks. An example of this is the sacred Iktomi, whose role is to play tricks and games and by doing so raises awareness and acts as an equalizer.In several cultures, (as may be seen in Greek, Norse, or Slavic folktales, along with Native American/First Nations lore), the trickster and the culture hero are often combined. To illustrate: Prometheus, in Greek mythology, stole fire from the gods to give to humans. He is more of a culture hero than a trickster. In many Native American and First Nations mythologies, the coyote (Southwestern United States) or raven (Pacific Northwest and Russian Far East) stole fire from the gods (stars, moon, and/or sun) and are more tricksters than culture heroes. This is primarily because of other stories involving these spirits: Prometheus was a titan, whereas the Coyote spirit and Raven spirit are usually seen as jokesters and pranksters. Examples of Tricksters in the world mythologies include Mercurius in Roman mythology, Hermes in Greek mythology, Eshu in Yoruba mythology and Wakdjunga in Winnebago mythology as examples of the Trickster archetype. Hansen makes the observation that the Trickster is nearly always a male figure. Loki cuts the hair of the goddess Sif. Frequently the Trickster figure exhibits gender and form variability, changing gender roles and even occasionally engaging in same-sex practices. Such figures appear in Native American and First Nations mythologies, where they are said to have a two-spirit nature. Loki, the Norse trickster, also exhibits gender variability, in one case even becoming pregnant (ODD THAT THESE "PREGNANT" ENERGIES ARE ALL AROUND ME!). He shares the ability to change genders with Odin, the chief Norse deity who also possesses many characteristics of the Trickster. In the case of Loki's pregnancy, he was forced by the Gods to stop a giant from erecting a wall for them before seven days passed; he solved the problem by transforming into a mare and drawing the giant's magical horse away from its work. He returned some time later with a child he had given birth to—the eight-legged horse Sleipnir, who served as Odin's steed (ODD, ALSO THAT THE SYMBOL OF A HORSE AND HORSES KEEP POPPING UP AROUND ME AS WELL.) In some cultures, there are dualistic myths (I KEEP TRYING TO TELL PEOPLE ABOUT DUALITY!), featuring two demiurges creating the world, or two culture heroes arranging the world — in a complementary manner. Dualistic cosmologies are present in all inhabited continents and show great diversity: they may feature culture heroes, but also demiurges (exemplifying a dualistic creation myth in the latter case), or other beings; the two heroes may compete or collaborate; they may be conceived as neutral or contrasted as good versus evil; be of the same importance or distinguished as powerful versus weak; be brothers (even twins) (AGAIN, WHY WAS I HEARING AND FEELING "TWIN" ENERGY!?) or not be relatives at all.British scholar Evan Brown suggested that Jacob in the Bible has many of the characteristics of the Trickster: The tricks Jacob plays on his twin brother Esau, his father Isaac and his father-in-law Laban are immoral by conventional standards, designed to cheat other people and gain material and social advantages he is not entitled to. Nevertheless, the Biblical narrative clearly takes Jacob's side and the reader is invited to laugh and admire Jacob's ingenuity—as is the case with the Tricksters of other cultures". The Trickster or Clown is an example of a Jungian archetype. In modern literature the trickster survives as a character archetype, not necessarily supernatural or divine, sometimes no more than a stock character. Often too, the Trickster is distinct in a story by his acting as a sort of catalyst, in that his antics are the cause of other characters' discomfiture, but he himself is left untouched. A once-famous example of this was the character Froggy the Gremlin on the early children's TV show "Andy's Gang." A cigar-puffing puppet, Froggy induced the adult humans around him to engage in ridiculous and self-destructive hijinks. At possibly the opposite end of the literary spectrum can be found the mysterious character of Uncle Drosselmeyer in The Nutcracker. Drosslemeyer appears to be a magician of some sort, and is the source of the evening's magical adventure.In later folklore, the trickster/clown is incarnated as a clever, mischievous man or creature, who tries to survive the dangers and challenges of the world using trickery and deceit as a defense. He also is known for entertaining people as a clown does. For example many typical fairy tales have the King who wants to find the best groom for his daughter by ordering several trials. No brave and valiant prince or knight manages to win them, until a poor and simple peasant comes. With the help of his wits and cleverness, instead of fighting, he evades or fools monsters and villains and dangers with unorthodox manners. Therefore the most unlikely candidate passes the trials and receives the reward. More modern and obvious examples of that type are Bugs Bunny, Pippi Longstocking.(THIS STORY REMINDS ME OF "ALADDIN" ONE OF MY ALL TIME FAVORITE DISNEY MOVIES, AGAIN IRONIC THAT I JUST LEARNED THAT AUTOLYCUS WAS AN  OFFSPRING OF HERME'S AND cHIONE (A MORTAL). HE WAS KNOWN AS "THE PRINCE OF THIEVES AND HIS GRANDFATHER WAS ODYSSEUS). While the trickster crosses various cultural traditions, there are significant differences between tricksters in the traditions of many indigenous peoples and those in the European tradition: ManY native traditions held clowns and tricksters as essential to any contact with the sacred. People could not pray until they had laughed, because laughter opens and frees from rigid preconception (GOD HAS BEEN TELLING ME TO LAUGH MORE!). Humans had to have tricksters within the most sacred ceremonies for fear that they forget the sacred comes through upset, reversal, surprise. The trickster in most native traditions is essential to creation, to birth.Native American tricksters should not be confused with the European fictional picaro. One of the most important distinctions is that "we can see in the Native American trickster an openness to life's multiplicity and paradoxes largely missing in the modern Euro-American moral tradition". In some stories the Native American trickster is foolish and other times wise. He can be a hero in one tale and a villain in the next.

My entire life I have never really researched any of these things (nor do i remember half of anything from grade school) or really paid in depth attention to different theologies, religions. until now I have just kind of blindly flocked with the other sheep, when i knew deep down I have a greater purpose, a purpose to help guide and protect the other sheep/children/humans.

I have always been drawn towards Greek History, Egyptian History, Atlantis, Mid-Evil Era's, Knights/Arthur/Merlin.Towards Fantasy and magical things. Dragons, Fairies, you name it, i found they all excite me in different ways, regardless of billions of Christians telling me to "STAY AWAY, IT'S EVIL, there are consequences"

I have been doing a lot of research this week about this whole "good and evil" thing. I have come the the conclusion that i don't believe in good and evil, or good and bad, and I dont like to even define anything with those words. Jesus wasn't really here to save us from our "sins". Sin does not exist, we are here to learn and the whole idea of "sin" is simply another means for this dimension to control us and keep us in a perpetual cycle of reincarnation.

I have learned that Demons aren't any different from the Angels, they have as much of a purpose as we do, to keep the balance. and we are actually living on a planet THEY run and control (Archons), and they have basically placed us in this matrix and have us tricked into believing what the majority of the planet does, using every chance they can to manipulate our emotions and posses us or others so they can feed off of us and make us strong where we are too weak to sustain through a circumstance/situation. We are merely a food source for them much like plants and animals are for us. They are only doing whats "natural" for them, but breeding us in a "toxic" environment that we continually create ourselves because of the veil/matrix they have placed over us to confuse us. It takes lifetimes of reincarnation before we break free and cross over this "veil" from our own free will. This doesn't happen until you start really focusing your life on God's will and focusing on Self and allowing God to create your own REVELATIONS to break you free.

This week I started off with great fear inside me regarding Ben and my thoughts of him being possessed (which i still believe he is). I started freaking out for the safety of my children and he has always been one of my greatest fears. This week I broke free from a deep seeded fear I have been holding in my entire life. This fear kept a dark cloud looming over me ALL the time, caused me insomnia and fear of the dark as a child. My fear was Demon Possession. I was starting to worry and doubt against what is happening in my life and became scared of receiving the wrong advice from the wrong spirits or guides since I am opening myself up now to receive the guidance. I came to learn, that I am a gifted light being who can see through illusions and see the "larger" picture, picture going way beyond Earth. I have no reason to limit myself with this fear, and thats exactly what it is for EVERY christian. It is not the TRUTH, it is a fear that has been brainwashed into you to believe. Demons are nothing to be scared of, they can't "hurt" you unless you ALLOW them, and we each individually have the ability to cast them out of ourselves, at any time we want, until we do this, and we decide to really connect with God and heal ourselves and depend on him, they aren't going to just leave, in some way they are supporting where you are lacking strength. As far as casting them out of others, maybe god will call me to do that someday since Jesus and Krishna are two very strong spirits that support and guide me and the ones you need the assistance from to do so. Yes you can be tricked by mischievous entities, be deceived but I know deep inside that the guidance I am receiving and allowing in is Truth, and i can FEEL IT and SENSE it when it is not "light". I am a light being, an Earth Angel, I am a HUGE exception to any normal joett out there. God has been showing me

"kym, my dear spirit warrior, you are an immortal soul who has profound connection with the Heavens. You have a noble purpose! You yearn for spiritual atonement and are allowing yourself to be hampered by outmoded viewpoints. Take charge of your own life, stop living in fear! Looking into the past, including other lives, will put your present experience into perspective. You are a lineage breaker! It takes effort to trace family history, but it's enlightening and this is your task. Flashes of intuition show the way. Open your heart and 3rd eye, spiritual enlightenment is within your grasp and help is coming from on high. Enhanced perception shows you what operates beneath consensual reality. Work with your dreams and journey inward to find deeper insights. You need to continue your study and research, but protect yourself!" God keeps showing me clues that "AMETHYST" is a crystal that will support me right now, and I am to use it in my spiritual awakening. It resembles unshakable inner peace. It wards of intoxication and is a natural tranquilizer that balances extremes. It calms the soul and opens it to an influx of spiritual vision. It symbolizes divinity on Earth. God is telling me to make concerted effort to overcome addictive behavior or obsessions of any kind. That i need to balance work and place as I am prone to excess in both. I must go within to know myself and to understand hidden causes of my compulsive actions. I need to find peace of mind and hand my will over to my soul and allow my spirituality to flourish. God is telling me "You have a beautiful soul. Just look within yourself to find your strength. Do not rely on others. You create anything you set your mind to! Be shrewd in business dealings. Roughness on the outside conceals strength and beauty within! Pay attention to your family!" He is also making it clear to me that I am a person with profound inner depths. That I should no be afraid to explore this hidden side of myself as it contains treasure beyond knowing. He is connecting me with my ancestors and is telling me to use flint to hone into the wisdom that comes down my ancestral line. He's telling me I am a natural traveler and that I know how to negotiate the shamanic underworld to retrieve soul parts found there and apply healing insights (Probably why i was guided to read about Hermes). God is telling me i can cut through my confusion to the core of the matter. Soul retrieval is necessary if i let any part of myself in another life or an abusive childhood experience. He is telling me an unwelcome visitor from the past can be left firmly behind but that i must accept any lessons and insights they bring before i move on. God is also showing me that i may spend too much time worrying about home, family and finances. He is telling me to remember that i am an abundant being who manifests what I need. I have an innocent wise child inside who yearns to play and that joyful play creates a "wonder-full" world. he is showing me that self-regard heals a damaged child. I need to recognize the gratitude, for I am blessed. I need to learn how to accept constructive criticism and become emotionally balanced, letting feelings flow naturally and openly. God tells me that abundance is all around me. I naturally attract success and prosperity. I must STOP worrying, be optimistic and allow life to happen! I need to trust my intuition and my perception. Again, consult the wise child within, to take time out for joyful play. My thoughts on the bigger  picture are correct. If you have family discord, harmony is going to be restored through praise and not criticism. God is also telling me to become comfortable in my own body and in my environment. I incarnated with a specific purpose in mind: to be a guardian for the planet. (Like the Indego's) I am a vehicle for purifying and healing the Earth, and reminding others that it is a sacred, living being and should be treated with respect. I need to pay attention to where i live within myself. I must do my inner housekeeping and nurture myself. I will put my energy to work nurturing the Earth and dealing with environmental concerns. I won't participate in anything that despoils the planet or diminishes its resources. I am becoming a vehicle for the healing of the environment by opening myself to higher vibrational energies. WORK WITH YOUR POWER ANIMAL AND NOURISH YOUR INNER BEING (when he told this to me, I asked what my animal was really, and as I posted the other day he showed me that "Lady Bugs" where my power animal).God also repeated to me that I need to draw on ancestral wisdom. I can do this by keeping near me a Mookaite Jasper. This stone balances inner and outer experiences and encourages versatility and new experiences. it helps one to be open to all possibilities and choose the right path. God has told me that i am a powerful being whose roots go far back into the past. What i dreamed, I created. Now it is time to reap rewards or rectify imbalances. I need toh ave courage to run failure into a learning experience and start again. While doing this i will turn and offer the hand of friendship to assist others who treat the same path, I am told my instinctive wisdom inspires them. God is telling me to put my skills to use VIGOROUSLY. Says that adventurous times lie ahead and that i must not worry. I am PROTECTED AGAINST DECEIT AND ENEMIES. I must recognize my strength, stay positive and pragmatic, and reject pie-in-the-sky ideas. I must avoid pride and despair. He is showing me that I have great stamina and to wait patiently. If two courses of action are open i must go for the more straightforward. He is telling me a professional challenge, such as a job interview or presentation will be successful. God is also guiding me to keep Black Tourmaline near me as it absorbs negative energy and affords excellent energetic protection, enhancing my physical vitality. It makes known the source of problems or evil deeds. It encourages altruism and rational thought. God is telling me that I am an adaptive being who easily adjusts to the energy of new places and new situations. I have a gift of clarity of thought and can analyze situations rapidly. He is telling me to let go of over-cautiousness but to stay protected. He is reassuring me that i AM NOT PARANOID; I can sense when people wish me ill. God is telling me that I may be carrying a family or past life curse (I felt a sense of this the other day when I was discussing demonic possession with my mom. she, ironically enough, this week has been researching it a lot as well with concerns that her ex husband Gregg may be as well, Gregg is just like ben, over controlling and manipulative and emotionally abusive. Not only has she been having female issues but my grandmother has also been suffering with female issues down below. It has been within the past month that my mom has moved out of my step dads, into her own apartment and is getting a divorce from him. he is freaking out, and has always had an attitude/hatred/issues towards me, my sister and my grandma that I won't get into right now. My mom told me that during the past 6 months, she has wanted to commit suicide but the thought of how it would effect me and my sister kept her from doing so (same thing i went through with my ex husband and my kids being my own will power to remain here). Suicide would not be a "new" thing in my family lineage. I am thankful that she did not succumb to it though, and she was actually delivered from the spirit of suicide a few weeks ago with a pastor. She told me that she thinks Gregg put a curse on all of us since she started breaking his bonds of control and abuse over her with the Pastor. This entire time I thought I was pregnant because I'm bleeding every other week and my abdomen has been ON FIRE. I can PHYSICALLY feel the reality of all this. God is telling me already I may be carrying a "family curse" and my mom tells me this. At least I'm aware of the why God led me to study about demon's and curs's etc. Now that he has shown me this, he is telling me to recognize that my negative thoughts and actions harm others and myself. it is time for me to consolidate my plans and be realistic. He will soon show me the way through upcoming obstacles. I need to ensure that i am well protected from negative energies. Is warning me that "Ill wishing or envy may be directed my way" (believe me people I can feel these energies when you radiate them out) and when i sense this i am to picture the Black Tourmaline surrounding me and neutralizing bad energy without harm to others. I will continue to watch my thoughts and attend to practical matters. He is telling me to be generous and give others freedom.

I believe God is really just trying to show me my gifts and purpose right now. Keeps showing me that I AM on the right path regardless of the fears and doubts of other people that i can get too focused on. I know God is showing me I am an Alchemist, have Prophetic abilities, I can sense/see both angel's and demons. Basically I'm a reader which comes with a ton of different "gifts" in a bag. I believe i may have a past life as a Shaman or am meant to become one in this life. I'm excited to be learning all this. God is just SO amazing, and I know I am protected every step of the way!

Jaw Dropped In Joy

It is just JAW DROPPING the way God works and synchronizes things in my life. I'm just... so gracious and in awe. I have never experienced the purest joy I currently am, until now.

I know I'm not insane. That I am pregnant. Or at least God is telling me now is the time to become pregnant. Ya, ya all can say I'm crazy. If I'm not already pregnant, I am having my IUD removed and it's bound to happen regardless, because I want to be "natural" again. I am welcoming this into my life. I am completely in love with the this man Brandon Huth, and I know we are to be married and live a very very very blessed and happy life together. We want a baby together, it's really all we talk about at this point. NOTHING is "easy" right now, NEVER has been. We're working our butts off, but we are BLESSED beyond measure. The Lord keeps our bills paid, keep food in our stomachs, provides for our needs in every way shape and form, and I know as far as certain things falling apart such as my car, multiple things in my apartment (dish washer, air conditioner, doors) , I know MUCH more is awaiting for us as long as I "wait and have patience" and I no longer live in fear of the "unknown", I walk each day in faith and certainty that God and the Angels are DIVINELY guiding me, every second of the day.

By Sept 2015 we will have a Earth friendly house in Coal Creek Canyon (or somewhere near by there) which we will obtain through Aquarian Real Estate. This home is where I will have plenty of space to have horses, my own organic chickens, a ORGANIC VEGETABLE GARDEN, totally "off grid" and energy efficient, and keeps "living" costs WAY low. . We will have a small backyard pond/water fountain, Jacuzzi/hot tub, Tree House, 7 rooms plus a "man cave" and office, and AMAZING kitchen. This home will cost me no more than between $7,000.00-$70,000. I will get back to being ONE with Nature (i miss the mountains. if i cannot live by the ocean i must be in nature) and working WITH it not against it! We will somehow (the means of which will be decided by God and I'm simply living life in faith!) come about on an abundance of money to get our home, new vehicles and kick off brandon's and my own business(s) that we want to manage by May 2015. Get everything in the works to leave Hands and Stone by my "1 year anniversary date" with them of January 31st 2015 (or if the universe directs, to buy out this business and manage it myself.) I will focus on my health and that of my children/family and for once be HEALTHY, not in pain all the time and ENJOYING LIFE, PLAYING, LAUGHING, LOVING. I already know sometime in November -January I will arrange to take a vacation with my family that will OPEN a TON of doors for us in some way. I am achieving this vacation throughWorldVentures, I have faith in this business and once I get my massage and healing practice going I WILL tell the world through the clients I bring in there about WorldVentures and its AMAZING opportunities.

This is my vision. What I am planting in the soil and expect to bloom in my life in the next year. All this is being achieved as i delve deeper into myself and purify that which is blocked. I am letting go and being rebirthed. Thursday there will be a new moon. New moons are an AMAZING energy to harness from. I will be going with my very good friend Ellie to Temple to Meditate and chant to ALL the names of GOD both feminine and masculine, and bubble up this energy of Love and joy I feel and send it out for the universe to boomarang right back at me exactly what I need to fulfill my Destiny here as a light conscious healer and spiritual teacher! I love my life and I will live it to the fullest each day that is given to me. I am so grateful and blessed. Doors are opening and there is boundless opportunity for me. I'm not taking it for granted for another second in my life. I won't GIVE UP just as the miracles are starting to appear!

As far as anyone who wants to say the "path" i am on is "wrong", and I'm not seeing the reality or real "truth" of things (fully based upon Christianity, which bare in mind, I am still walking in alignment with Jesus, he is my MAIN spirit guide, along with Archangel Michael and Raphael. It's THEIR love and that of God's that DRIVES me) The fact is... I am seeing the reality.This IS my truth and will BECOME my truth. I am CREATING this reality by BELIEVING it is happening RIGHT NOW. True hope and faith to the core creates BELIEF. BELIEF with an open heart and an open mind, creates miracles that spills into everyone's lives. Like Jesus I will take that which is given and create with it 100 fold. Having the gift of Alchemy is a true blessing especially in conjunction with the energy that is swarming around us right now. It's a year of letting go of the old and opening up to receive the new beginnings God has been WAITING to rain into our lives!

My Runes the other day made one thing very clear to me. Do not steer away from my quest as a Spiritual Warrior. Not to be brought down with negative thoughts, and fully allowing this breakthrough into my life, after all it's what's brought the abundance I am currently experiencing. So if you are going to preach to me about how I should "turn away" from this, please don't do so. You have absolutely no idea what you are talking about. Until you EXPERIENCE (which in time we ALL will be forced to) what I have, you know NOTHING. I KNOW NOTHING, but everyday am learning and gaining so much knowledge and wisdom not only for myself but others. That's what's amazing... the truth comes from connecting deeply, inwardly within your SELF.God is within each and every person, plant, animal around you, you must only search for it yourself and speak love into EVERYTHING. Be open to see that which you never thought would exist. Look deeper into the shadows to find the BEAUTY in life!

RUNE READING Oct 15th 2014
4 Runes
(I consulted the runes regarding a friends negative reaction to my spiritual awakening story or post, and her need to fill me with fear against the truth i know i have already received. Truth i know is not evil or "wrong". These runes put me back into the correct awareness of the situation and helped me balance and reverting back out of that fearful state that i refuse to fall back into)

(7) Initiation: Perth - Something Hidden, A Secret Matter
A hieratic or mystery Rune pointing to that which is beyond our frail manipulative powers. Perth is on the side of Heaven, the Unknowable, and has associations with the phoenix (i have CLOSE connections to phoenix's, always have so this resonated deeply with me. having lived a life like a phoenix. being burned yet i rose again out of the ashes), that mystical bird which consumes itself in the fire and then rises from its own ashes. It's ways are secret and hidden. Powerful forces of change are at work here. Yet what is achieved is not easily or readily shared. After all, becoming whole, the means of it, is a profound secret. On the side of the earthly or mundane, there may well be surprises, gains or rewards that you did not anticipate. On the side of human nature, this Rune is symbolized by the flight of the Eagle (I also have a very close connection with Eagles, I view them as a representation of FREEDOM and beauty. BIRDS in particular keep "popping" up as "signs" for me. I think it's because I'm learning to FLY), soaring flight free from entanglement, lifting yourself above the endless ebb and flow of ordinary life to acquire broader vision- all this is indicated here. Another of the Cycle Runes, Perth sands at the heart of Initiation. NOTHING EXTERNAL MATTERS HERE, EXCEPT AS IT SHOWS YOU ITS INNER REFLECTION. This Rune is concerned with the deepest stratum of your being, the bedrock on which your destiny is founded. For some, Perth means experiencing a death. In need be, let go of everything, no exceptions, no exclusions. Nothing less than renewal of your spirit is at stake when you draw this Rune

(14) Opening: Kano - Fire Torch
This is the Rune of Opening and renewed clarity, of dispelling the darkness that has been shrouding some part of your life. You are free now both to receive gifts and to know the joy of non-attached giving. Kano is the Rune for the morning of activities, for seriousness, clear intent and concentration, all of which are essential at the beginning of any endeavor. One of the 13 Cycle Runes, the protection offered by Kano is this: THE MORE LIGHT YOU HAVE, THE BETTER YOU CAN SEE WHAT IS TRIVIAL AND OUTMODED IN YOUR OWN CONDITIONING. In relationships, there can now be a mutual opening up which you may trigger and set in motion through your awareness that the light of understanding is once again available to you both. Recognize that while on the one hand you are limited and dependent, on the other you exist at the perfect center where the harmonious and beneficent forces of the universe merge and radiate. You ARE that center. Simply put, if you have been operating in the dark, there is now enough light to see that the patient on the operating table is yourself.

(13) Harvest: Jera - Fertile Season, One Year
A rune of beneficial outcomes, Jera applies to any activity or endeavor to which you are committed. Be aware, however, that no quick results can be expected. A span of time is usually involved; hence the key words "One Year," symbolizing a full cycle before the reaping, the harvest or deliverance. You have prepared the ground and planted the seed. Now you must cultivate with care. To those whose labor has a long season, a long coming to term, Jera offers encouragement of success. Know that the outcomes is in the keeping of Providence and continue to persevere. Remember the old story about the farmer who was so eager to assist his crops that he went out at night and tugged on the new shoots. There is no way to push the river; equally you cannot hasten the harvest. Be mindful that patience is essential for the recognition of your own process which, in its season, leads to the harvest of the self.

(5) Strength: Uruz - Manhood, Womanhood, The Wild Ox
The Rune of terminations and new beginnings, drawing Uruz indicates that the life you have been living has outgrown its form. That form must die so that new energy can be released in a new form. This is the Rune of passage and, as such, part of the Cycle of Initiation. Positive growth and change, however, may involve a decent into the darkness as part of the cycle of perpetual renewal. As in nature, this progression consists of five aspects: death, decay, fertilization, gestation, rebirth. Events occurring now may well prompt you to undergo death within yourself. Since self change is never coerced-we are always free to resist- remain mindful that the new life is always greater than the old. Prepare, then, for opportunity disguised as loss. It could involve the loss of someone or something to which you have intense emotional bond, and through which you are living a part of your life, a part that must now be retrieved so you can live it out for yourself. In some way, that bond is being severed, a relationship radically changed, a way of life coming to and end. Seek among the ASHES (phoenix, synchronicity) and discover a new perspective and new strength. The ancient symbol for Uruz was the aurochs, a wild ox. When the wild od was domesticated - an immensely difficult task- it could transport heavy loads. Learn to adapt yourself to the demands of such a creative time. Firm principles attach to this Rune. At the same time humility is called for since in order to rule you must learn how to serve. Uruz puts you on notice that your soul and the universe support the new growth.

so there you go people. there's my weeks worth of wisdom to share with you all LOL. Plenty more to come.

I am dying to myself, being reborn as a full manifestation of light 

SPIRITUAL AWAKENING

Oct 15 2014

http://www.spiritscienceandmetaphysics.com/10-life-changes-you-cant-avoid-on-the-path-to-awakening/

I am meant to fulfill a spiritual purpose in this life. That is my calling to make others aware of spirituality and teach it. That is why all this is important to me and my utmost importance than anything else. this is who I am what god is calling me to do and I cannot ignore it.

I live in a different multidimensional reality because that is TRUE reality. We live in a 3rd dimension of duality between masculine and feminine, the yin and yang, we wouldnt exist without both but we battle each other. Earth and human existence is a matrix, though. that we must break free of and eventually the veil will lift when we shift to the 5th dimension and it will make sense to everyone else because they will be forced to see it as well but for now as everyone lives among illusions and continually blindly mirror themselves, few have fully awakened like myself and a select few others I've luckily and graciously encountered, i just feel impatient and severely misunderstood in the meantime of trying to explain all these things to other people while still grasping the concept myself.

What I practice in my spiritual pursuit, am continuing to practice, is real, whether anyone cares about it or not,are interested in learning it too or not. I will only grow more into it because it is who I AM and what I'm supposed to be/do.

I am a powerful divine goddess and I will not continue to live life in fear and hide from my divine life purpose here on this planet. I am a healer and counselor with clairvoyant and oracculor (yes i made this word up) abilities. I am learning patience with others and myself as I grow into my new abilities and gifts and embrace them along with the wisdom and knowledge that is literally being downloaded into me and I have no control over it but I must accept it with gratitude and truth. In fact, I love it, I crave the communication and guidance. I would not have the blessings i currently have obtained if it weren't for my ACTION and DILIGENCE in the spiritual aspects of things. I wouldn't be as open to allowing life to unfold the way it currently is if I continued living with my old outdated belief system. I have changed so much in as little of one year that I have to relearn how to communicate and respond in relationships and with people around me in every aspect.

I'm just saying this spiritual quest of mine will never change, it is the light and essence that guides me, without it I have no purpose or will to live my life. Hope, god, archangels and spirit, have kept me away from committing suicide or being torchered\persecuted (so far) in this life, longer then in any other past life and I HAVE reached such a spiritual\life altering breakthrough that I just cannot simply explain to anyone else who hasnt experienced the shift themselves yet what is going on or to even comprehend what I'm becoming, visualizing, manifesting, healing and releasing.
People gotta flow with it or get out of my way so I can do what I need to do. Its not personal but I have a mission and you can jump on for the ride and enjoy it to the end but don't rock the boat and try to control my wheel, cuz I see WAY further into the distance and beyond space and can confidently continue to steer the way through with grace.

I can't explain it in the present moment because it is a LOT to learn in such a short time and even to process and incorporate into my entire life myself let alone explain everything and why I'm doing things the way I am on top of that is a bit overwhelming. I am in the developmental stages of learning and practicing. Pretend I am going to school and all these "tools" I'm using are showing me signs and synchronicity that help me gain confidence in MY OWN intuition and guidance. To heal and help myself along with others. I focus on my subconscious mind more then the conscious and using these tools helps me balance both, focus inwardly and on my SELF and break through illusions and anything in my life (past or present) that are holding me back or blocking me in the present to move forward in ascendance and change and heal this world.

Spiritual teachers, healers, guides of all realms are now guiding me to embrace this walk. I will not for any reason change the spiritual course I am following and it will be used in every decision, big or small because it is not just ME I'm looking out for, its everyone else joining and walking beside me in this life who will benefit as well. Hold my hand or go away from me.

The tools i use (cards, runez, pendulum, astrology, numerology, crystals, plants and flowers/herbs, alternative holistic health) TAKE ME OUT of my own ego based mentality, my pride. help me and everyone else balance their negative aspects that ARE greatly influenced by different planets and energies at different times and other factors. I'm not just talking about a bunch of mumbo jumbo or making a joke. It is VERY serious and REAL to me and it's not going to change. Its not something I'm willing or WANT to change because its what's begun the momentum I now have grabbed a hold of to change myself and the world around me. Its my ONLY means and ability to change. It makes me self aware.

I wont apologize for preferring spiritual counseling over wordly and choosing to make good conscious soul changing decisions in each moment based off of that then temporary choices that could effect me in a future lifetime that I could have otherwise avoided the karma from. I am not just focused on THIS life. I am an OLD soul who's had billions of lives who is finally re-birthed in full knowledge of its SELF.

ONCE AWAKENED THERE IS NO TURNING BACK OR SETTLING FOR THAT WHICH NO LONGER SERVES YOU OR OTHERS ANYMORE. Once the blind are healed with sight beyond a normal mans who would want to go back to walking in the dark blind when you certainly aren't so.

Knowing what you want and having the ability and blessing to achieve and receive it without struggle, it would be ignorant to consciously choose to turn back to circumstances that steal your power and bind you, being forced to just habitually "wing" it. I'm sorry but no thank you. Ive already experienced that and I'm not going to put myself in a situation to be drug through that again especially now that I'm manifesting my desires. I'm a healer, we get to the root issues first and heal them then we move forward together in alignment and in conscious understanding or if thats not achievable we will simply part ways in a loving manor for protection and the highest good of all involved.