My Freedom Tale of
Radiance and
The Business’s Budding
Stage
‘What
is FREEDOM/Health and a purified heart worth to you?!’
I
could tell you every dime I spent to heal my body and mind (and I'm not
finished, I still have a ways to go but I do not have a defeatist attitude). In
the end itll matter not- how much or little- i stopped keeping track for one
reason and that reason is this... money will NEVER DEFINE ME. My bank account
balance is no one's business but my own... and I am not "stingy" with
it when i see someone in need and spirit tells me "you can manage to help
and offer a little something or your touch" and so I DO.
I
Would rather share about the individuals who made everything a possibility for
me to bloom and no dollar difference of investment mattered or how we "pay
it forward" between one another.
It
is the SOUL if these individuals- not their EGOS- who altered my reality- not
the money dedication to me using them as a mirror and having equal currency
exchange as desired. it sucked paying then what i had to and in poverty
consciousness where majority of our clientele WILL BE BEGINNING- it felt
like i would die just in attempt to save my own life and get the nurturment i
needed and was depleted of from another kind hearted, caring and humble spirit.
What
it takes to heal yourself from where our parents or families lacked ability to
extend empathy and we received superficial love- is a lot of blood, sweat and
tears in the course of 7 years... or more..we are 'never finished' so to speak
but pain doesn't have to be perceived so harshly as it was when we first
experienced it and created habitual patterning of lies into our matrix just
because of our inability to 'let it go' and 'stop remembering it' in that
pattern. If this keeps reoccurring- a pattern is ready to be addressed.
Our
cells took such as a memory of abandonment and reversing this should not cost
literally one of your arms or legs! i felt what should be innate and natural
should not BE AS MUCH AS A COLLEGE DEGREE to get back into alignment to achieve
freedom and unconditional love and acceptance for YOURSELF and others. How
twisted both spectrum of duality have before. Some people need to get of their
fucking unicorns while others need to actually recognize THEY HAVE ONE! It
should not rack up A lifetime of bills to maintain our health especially with
rising prices of produce, utilities, entertainment, but no rise to the minimum
wages of everyone who become trapped in this very muddy and dense vibrational
frequency of victim consciousness towards it. Truly it is an illusion- and we
can begin to dismantle how it has any power or control over our futures what so
ever. People fear the apocalypse but dont realize its necessary to annihilate
their own minds with a fucking machine gun with every thought that tell’s it
that it is going to die!
stepping
into such a prison loop was not an option for me - but stepping out of it WAS!
I wanted OUT of the MAD WORLD of financial and societal expectations! Why...
because fuck it all and all that stress.
in
the long run every dime i spent for ‘me’ was so worth it! Screw this government
that almost suffocated me in debt and told me to consume more, buy buy buy! I
SAID NO! Now I’m not dead! I have less than $1,000 in my name at any given time
and breadwinner for 4 but i live life TRUSTING in the Divine to deliver in its
perfect timing ALL that i ever need to ‘survive’ and i dont see us as
surviving- we truly are thriving no matter what life hits us with because we
are SOLID IN KNOWING OF DIVINE WILL OVER OUR LIVES. We are not going to waste
time worrying- or listening to schmucks who want to profess we are wrong and
full of bull shit... because THATS THEIR OWN LIES- im innovating when the going
gets tough and my beloved supports every decision i make as the creatrix of
this family! Were hustlers to the max when it comes to fulfilling our spiritual
destiny- fuck money and ‘the American dream’.
Now
i am where i am this very moment designing this far too long mission and
services explanation and its 2:31 on a Friday 6/29/18! I am starting this
business and instead of throwing my money at a woman who’s presently in my life
and cares only about collecting her money she came to my room on Thursday
evening close to 8PM to inquire about “an overdue balance” I had with her. She
assumes i made an agreement to 'pay' for a weekend of which during my
visitation I did not feel equilibrium but utter abuse and
corruption/contradiction. I attempted to save up for this weekend in the course
of 2 years- but i was not feeling much "harmony" with them by the end
of the two weekends I got to finally spend to with them to "test the
waters" if we would have good 'orientation' together or not. The more
detailed aspects of the tale will be revealed further in my book about my
Metamorphoses and Remembrance and/or epiphanies of Trinity. I have ‘worried’
that they where too revolved around 'money and time' and it didn't take long
for a spiritual confirmation to be made for me to make a decision and manifest
a course of action.
These
women where not concerned about discovering how much i love art and to draw and
my attraction to birds/bugs, singing and dancing... i had to go against my own
morals and lie to them to leave me alone while at work in avoidance of telling
one of them (who is the more greedy one; the other just has a control problem)
i havent called her girlfriend back because I don't feel comfortable
speaking without a third party present. i know i will be attacked and that i
will not be paying $600 to them. Why!? Well they wont want to know and likely
many will hate me because i wont walk away silently this time and will expose
what i see as wicked. I am not afraid to tell the Davids of the world to fuck
off and get their heads out of their ass’s (a crack head ex of mine from way back
when, my ex boss at Hand and Stone and my Beloved's Father) neither am i afraid
to tell any woman whos imbalanced as anyone else and lack feminine YIN where to
shove a cactus. They have become far too isolated and comfortable as a
masculine frequency to allow it to rise into a balanced union within
themselves. Whether man or woman it is necessary to maintain a "twin heart
with Gaia and balanced 1 and 2. The one represents "From entropy to
Syntropy". Such is the Dance of Shiva with the Codon Ring of Fire and
ushers in the shadow of Entropy, brings a gift of freshness and can help us
obtain the Siddhi of Beauty (when they hire a zoo keeper for the beast). The
two represents "Returning to The One". So as you 'see it, so it
changes' with the Codon Ring Of Water and ushers in the shadow of Dislocation,
brings a gift of Orientation and can help us obtain the Siddhi of Unity.
Without the 1 as the programming partner, the 2 cannot activate; when they
collide magic happens.
This
is trinity Alignment’s greatest gift to offer... and education if none of it
made any sense what so ever. To learn the depth of the following will change
one's life. the balance of both 1 and 2 to come into the 3 (Trinity Alignment)
is essential be be aware, mindful and conscious over to make a collective shift
and bring upon the Dragonfly Dream (Explained in the 55th key and represents
FREEDOM)!
If
these individuals can get beyond what I’m about to say and approach me with a
new attitude and gift of generosity to not put the weight of owing them $600
over my head and move forward- then we will have a future friendship to
encounter; otherwise in and as of this moment I decline invitation to be of any
further acquaintance to them- and this is the beginning of ME CHOOSING FREEDOM.
Such
was a corrupt group I joined in attempt to see if we would make a good business
partnership- this book will go in depth of the experience regardless of offense’s
of this Prequel.
Ii
came to realize they arent even in alignment with themselves and do not live by
integrity of word and the language they speak to boast enlightenment- this
constricted me in their shadows and drug me deeply into my own- which i am
thankful for the challenge; However will make it known to them I do not need to
be challenged in regards to whether “im am choosing freedom” or not. I was
before the class liberated already by Divine Intervention- not by their Yuru
Class’s. they told my rabbit self to shut up and i could not speak the light
language that is my vocation of my pearl sequence (you can learn what this is)
and it challenged me greatly to STEP INTO FULL EMBODIMENT and remove the last
bit of fear that is even lingering making me hesitate to write even these first
few chapters.
I
had to make a quick decision to continue saying yes to abuse in my life or for
the final time say NO and move away from it. I have to now leave a place
and many other therapist that I LOVE and enjoyed entirely mingling with every
monday and Thursday; because I won’t tolerate being among what I term as
energetic vampires. Doing so will be the death of me when it is death lingering
over them… not myself. I dealt with the plague… the ball of darkness… the curse
that followed me since birth and for a long time I assumed was the Devil
wanting to possess me. Until I realized it was nothing to fear- that it was
indeed just ‘myself’… that is when the change began to quicken within my cells
in 2015. Let’s say I am 2 years into a 7 year cellular cycle I became ‘re-programming/scripting’since
2015. And what a tale of freedom do I have to share.
I’ve
been observing a few healers I invited there with my spirit of generosity- this
place was like a goddess temple- now it feels like a ‘whore house’- no offence
to the business manager who is a doll and took a huge weight onto her shoulders
after her husband passed almost three years ago but certain energies really
effect it as a whole collective and i must state what I’m paying witness to.
One
woman in specific and by not naming names I’m trying to salvage relations- but
we met in 2015 when i received my first ‘monkey mind yuru session’ at the
Celebration Expo in Denver and my encounter of it was with another woman who
instantly became a best friend who is someone i know and has experienced more
abuse than anyone should have to- I being one of the few she has even trusted
to be vulnerable with- took her heart seriously and have been holding it
tenderly in my own hands for some time now and sadly she’s addicted to abuse to
a point that she cannot see it continues and is not ascending her with these
two women she puts her full faith and trust into. For a year before I met
Malachi; I saw her every week and we ‘traded’- there was considerable amount of
discord between her and this mentor of hers quite often but she kept this
discord hidden for over 10 years. This is her own mentor she was with when i
met her at the booth, this woman helped ground me and ive never had conscious
awareness work done by her nor was I very familiar with her girlfriend and the
both of them have a supposed miracle dog. That’s about all I knew before I began
engaging with them. My best friends mentor boasts about her girlfriend she met
over a decade ago and her great abilities. i have yet to witness anything
profound to pay $700 worth for her time or $200 for a session i should have received
when I volunteered to be of service in one of their booths this past June. Up
until now she has been giving detox treatments at this bath house and
‘touching’ the minds and hearts of many through the technology she has obtained
to utilize a 4D space and manipulate cellular or auric matrix’s. Such as a bio
mat, aura star, and LIFE System. She sells various products to help with the
gut and detox of the body and is knowledgeable of these things offering advice
while servicing women with an Ionic Foot detox system. I Love these tools but
honestly I’m willing to give up all this amazing stuff (material world) simply
over one thing. Her greed.
I
have however been observing her auric and vibrational frequency and it truly is
revolving in a circle that i cannot continue to spin and become dizzy and
confused as we continue our dance of indifference in regards to it. It feels as
if it is creating cancer in my own heart that she will not face is a virus to
everyone she is influencing around us who are otherwise oblivious to the fact she
is so toxic. Especially after the loss of her renound miracle dog. Now a fake
level of joy has returned all in hype that they found a reincarnated version of
this same dog who died of a blood clot reaching her tongue leaving her
thrashing around trying to tear it off and leading ultimately to her final
breaths. I cried hearing the story and find legitimate genuine heartfelt
expression as her girlfriend spoke upon it at the pueblo expo. She said she is
writing a book to be released in November… I too have a book I have been
writing now for 2 years. I never got to share this with her as I still felt
indifference with her no matter how i observed and tried to come to a means and
perfect timing to express that i have the golden ticket out if she wishes to
receive it. Such a individual appeared on my schedule one day for a massage at
the spa just to disappear off of it ‘coincidentally’.
I
see the cancer this dog had and where it originated and the seed of the
creation is the one washing my feet, I feel great empathy for her but will not
align myself to her victim story through sympathy regarding any of her actions.
mary once anointed oils on Jesus’s feet and so i honor her when she does this
for me- it is the respectful thing to do to someone bowing before you in
service even if they aren’t aware it is of “Divine Will”. This is when i see
her soul truly dance and lay its touch upon me. I have wished to touch her and
her beloved just as equally but they are too guarded. There are many I have
come across… in my day to day life and online… that are also guarded and I struggle
and pull my hair out wondering how to communicate with them.
I
see the effects of these women boiling up in my beloved Best Friend and Sister
and my heart is legitimately breaking as i have to separate myself from a group
that my heartfelt intention was to unify and all of us to heal. And maybe
it will... but as all begins to unfold of my experience and destiny i write all
of it with intent to have impeccability with word. i joined this weekend
adventure and stayed for the whole three day experience only to monitor my
beloved Sister and her ‘charge’ who was another sweet soul who found her way
into the bathhouse through my sisters mentor. I felt Shekina over me and
guidance to watch over her the moment she arrived and i began praying for her
liberation as i have been for my other sister and she innocently and as a
cancer soul would took heart to assisting this charge of hers during a troubled
time between them both and had genuine intention of love but she too i could
sense was being drained by something! My attempts to tell her who or what
brought only confrontation and contradiction. We had a fight a few months
prior, a miss communication that also I needed her mentors help to get her to
understand why I just needed to her ‘listen’ to what happened to me and a ‘breakup’
I had with another Sistar who I was experience one heck of an attachment curse
with. I had to go through my “Energetic Divorce Technique” and bid farewell to
her because we where just toxic in one another’s lives; and my other beloved in
the moment; this this woman was at my hand fasting on 8/11/2017 couldn’t fathom
why this was happening. And We got into a fight when I tried telling her and I
was left leaving her house in tears that she would project such abuse towards
me saying “im creating my own reality”- when really I already know this… and I
just needed to share the ‘conclusion’ of an outdated programming process I HAD
to decode and needed support as I did the hardest part of moving into a higher
vibration- and that was detachment and “separation” because that is what THEY
required. I have an eternally open heart and my door is open to such
individuals whenever they wish to align to the greater dream with me; but until
then; I am doing what I need to do to obtain freedom. We didn’t have much of a ‘reconciliation’
yet and she’s been so busy with her own timeline’s and I know if I put too much
pressure on her as I did my other friend I tried talking to her about- that I too
would loose her. I did not want this. I did not yearn for separation- I yearned
for equality and Equilibrium to remain- for ALL OF US to find Harmony.
I
felt instant connection with this individual who was her Charge and Shekina
told me to be guardian of her long before she came to the bath house and she is
a free spirit indeed. Liberation is in her own profile and she is one of the
few who opened up to this in my life and let me introduce it to her thus far. I
witnessed her on the first day already get screamed at and ordered out of these
two ‘mentors’ apartment during the yuru weekend of hell and contradictory
mirrors. I wasn’t there to hear or SEE the fight but i felt every bit of it as
it was happening, texting both these beloved women of mine what symptoms or
emotions they where feeling for i felt such rage... in regards to money... in
my solar plexus and my right abdominal area cramped up. I had texted and met
with this individual shortly after who had the contradictory encounter with the
two women after the class. I already felt need after trading with her during
Yuru practice to speak privately with her about this woman who i also was the
entire day being told to shut up by and proclaimed the second i told her i had
a vast awareness id like to express- shut me down and told me just like my entire
family ever did growing up- that i was just full of bull shit. I stayed silent
the first day- then i feel what happens to another woman speaking her truth of
freedom to them and the energetic attack or spiritual warfare I experienced
after and then the next two days.
I
only returned for the next two days to show them I AM SERIOUS AND DID MAKE THE
CHOICE TWO YEARS AGO- but i stayed to see how their true colors and vibration
presented themselves. I wished to try and make space to talk about it and bring
equilibrium and harmony to the group but one woman just kept telling me to shut
up anytime i even breached the subjects she was making a mess of presenting
because she herself is a victim and hasnt obtained true freedom. How can one
possibly approach someone who is so full of pride and comfortably tell them a
truth they arent willing to hear or accept themselves but is the actual reality
of a circumstance at hand?
See
my predicament- i do not wish to lie to anyone or seem wishy washy but i have
not been given the green go sign that the vehicles I’m traveling with wont
pollute the environment while we journey forth upon an adventure
together. I will travel with those I trust and who DON’T GASLIGHT ME… or
my friends.
I
have to throw this at them and send a massive wedgie; maybe then they will see
im not a push over and have some big girl panties on that CANT BE TWISTED like
i know they will attempt to twist with their egos but I AM too present for them
to do so as is my beloved and he wont hesitate to stand as my guardian. I
cannot stop him from telling the world how much they have harmed myself
and plenty other bystander's as they live in denial of this they are
corrupting many while deceiving Themselves.
Im
refusing to run and hide like i have my entire life. Im branding my heart as my
wings are ready to stretch out and im on the runway ready for lift off! Whether
i wanted to stay in acquaintance with anyone in that specific space, which has
become energetically suffocating with the present vibration of the collective
there, it is not possible for me to obtain equilibrium as it is now. And
opportunity to leave abruptly has made itself manifest. If a few come visit me
and have open hearts and space to reconcile then my door is always open; and we
can continue our co creations together on grander scales then ever imagined
possible- or they can ignore me as i step into my true Radiance with or without
paying them $600.00. already paid $100, even that was more than Source expected
of me and their puppy chewed up the page i wrote the vision down upon and while
it happened her owner mocked "guess whatever was on that page is no longer
relevant or matters"
Precisely-words
out of the devils mouth herself.
because
this month i paid $100 for my Reiki Mastery to my own mentor who took me under
her wing in 2014 before I met any of them; and I also had to accept ownership
of a Private Business (my inheritance from great sweat equity) from my previous
mentor who was moving to Ohio! So here’s the ‘synchronicty’ about Ohio. I guess
the Detox woman once told this Charge a story that when a woman who lived in
Ohio had confronted her about her greedy vibration and intentions- she
retaliated and told the woman to practically go fuck herself… told us she ‘sent
her kill energy’ and told her to high tail herself back to Ohio and DIE there.
Ya I don’t need such a curse placed upon me because I am now also confronting
this very thing she chooses to be defensive about rather than address. And its
HARMING EVERYONE around her.
Such
was divine timing of it all- i love everyone even those who hurt me (for they
teach me my greatest of lessons and how to turn them into blessings) and
multiple others in their own poverty crisis. i am sick of hearing and running
into a collective of women who have been effected and abused by these two women
facilitating ‘yuru’. My mastery training was the weekend following the Yuru
Abuse and the Reiki love i received was so very necessary to process the events
of the previous two years and also felt more the essence of Yuru then those
proclaiming to have downloaded the modality identified as Yuru and in Sanscript
simply means ‘Guru. But being your own. Not rocket science and not worth $700
to share a weekend of with a group of people who do wish to change their lives
but the narcissists can't see this.
i
come to the temporary conclusion (because i never conclude anything just spiral
up in consciousness) that i cant consciously co create with people who have
ulterior, selfish and greedy motives. On top of that refuse to witness this in
and as themselves- and dont do anything to take accountability for their own
vibration and frequency- especially when the ego and fear is calling the shots.
I dont need to be shot anymore behind my back or cursed or from religious stand
points ‘prayed for’ when their concepts are being challenged and i witnessed
what it is they do to someone who does challenge them and i do not wish to be
treated that same way so i threaded LIGHTLY... i was very silent; but VERY
present as i indeed began weaving the macro into the micro... as i attempted to
tell others about the ant's who where showing us how to do this. Everyone else
was just annoyed by them. Fear doesn't annoy me... but grasshoppers keeping the
little ants who want to break free of their own fear... does bother me. It’s
one thing to fuck with ME… I can honestly handle anything… I bend and don’t
break under pressure. I just choose not to engage with abuse and will deal with
them from a distance.
I
had to pick up the messes of these two women and catch them in their own
manipulation and entities controlled them left and right even though they judge
two women who smoke MMJ daily in their lives- and they proclaim ability to
clear them of others and act as if "they don't have those problems"
themselves. I DETERMINED THAT IS A LIE. somehow when were both combined
(myself and the other 'smoker') MAGIC HAPPENS- she gets clients when im at a
booth in the other room (so does the goddess who stood up to them the first day
as I wanted to and thus she spoke truth for a collective that day feeling their
pressure upon us all to 'break this limitation in our lives' when truly it is
THEM who needed to break such limitation of their ego's and I stood behind and
SHOWED UP with ONE purpose... to be with my beloved sister in the moment she
polorized to CELEBRATE FOR HER! I wrote it down... 9:06 AM
seems
she needed their abuse to do so- I don't learn from abuse anymore nor choose to
attract this into my life- but i knew it was necessary for her to experience
this workshop herself so that we could come into equilibrium in regards to an
encounter of contradiction we both experienced a few months prior that I
already explained briefly and also i witnessed a similar contradiction between
her and her Charge when we where returning from Pueblo in June. I had to help
them both process some very HEAVY DENSE energy- and because of the twisted
teachings or ‘tricks’ that where taught by her mentor to her for years- it
created another “abusive situation” that made everyone in the car feel
contradiction and constriction out the wazzoo! Now I know how to handle these
situations; I can tell my energy from anothers and pin point who’s is who’s and
in this moment these two women taught me a great deal of what I have to offer
others… and that I am safe to be vulnerable with- and I can help when PTSD
triggers flare up. I just need others to trust me to “do my magic”. I have to
say even though the two still haven’t made amends- mainly because my best
friend keeps turning to these two other women for advice and they aren’t the
one’s she should be talking to about it- I must state that I AM SO PROUD of the
Goddess who liberated herself on the first day of yuru by simply standing up and
saying "no i wont tolerate this treatment... how about this
concept!?" and she walked out with COURAGE in her veins to continue facing
the barbaric and TOXIC energy at our communal workplace. I honestly feel
as if I have to walk around on egg shells- and I feel need to avoid her because
of how shocked I still am.
So
now i ask them "Where do YOU
throw the prostitute under the bus?"
They
will know what I mean when I ask this because it was discussed on the final day
of class- and I took detailed notes for a reason. They will get copies of them
all for full authentic revelations. (and scripting of this current chapter may
shift or alter depending upon their future actions)
I
can see where their own NO's are stronger than their YES...
and how that is sabotaging us and killing my best friend, and completely
drained her innocent Charge.
My
best friend is doing quantum readings and touch from a pure heart who knows the
ways of manifestation and together we create much synchronicity of abundance
and prosperity of various currency's. I chose not to “put out as much manifestation
energy” at the pueblo fair as I did at the Denver one I magically got a booth
at and it low and behold came to me on 9/8/2017! When I receive from someone I
bring them prosperity also with intention that other's magnetize to them as
well. This is no rocket science of the holistic 'trades' to me; and yet I felt
spoken to like I am an ignorant fool the entire time I volunteered to be with
them. I did perfectly fine attracting clients with my own card table- there is
a reason I didn’t manifest as much ‘flow’ to their booth at the Pueblo Fair… It
was a test… The Charge got very very busy yet I was still questioned “where can
you offer your spirit of generocity to help her during a rush rather than
sitting here just hanging out”. I will be the one to demand when I enact my
spirit of generocity- I need no one to tell me how and when to look for
opportune moment to do so. I now return to sender the same task. How can SHE
now return the spirit of generocity this Charge brought to the booth and didn’t
even get paid HALF the revenue of the service performed. They can’t offer this
service- it is NOT THEIR TALENT- and she hasn’t received ANY clientele nor any “promises”
by them where fulfilled to teach her Reiki if she came once a week and worked
on the both of them for 2 hours at a time clearing their meridians and helping
with the detox woman’s “cancer”. And yet they wish to ignore her entirely when
she confronts them about what REAL “give and receiving” looks like. What REAL
KINDNESS is and what MEANNESS is.
I
witness however for years now how they get money and prosperity feeding off
other innocent women's open hearts and efforts. They almost got me- but I have
my trusty Malachi as my walking lie detector when others try to throw me through
a loop. I truly am my pearl of innocence and can be manipulated… but I’m
learning how to CATCH people in the ACT… and BE A STOP CODON. They feed off the
energetic rewards those individuals should be receiving as their own abundance!
I see such selfish intentions; old Hags tired and worn out with no other
resources and desperate for money as their clients dwindle, but ABUSING those
still willing to service with a heart of generosity- and managing them through
FEAR. I AM HERE TO TEACH HAPPINESS and EMPOWERMENT! These type of vibrational
drag's in any sense would appear to be vampires... and anyone i discuss this
situation with agree. Vampires are NOT something here to help CO CREATE
ONENESS. They are here to create Separation with fear tactic's and this is a
form of ABUSE. it's called GAS LIGHTING and it one of the most HIDDEN and
DANGEROUS forms of EMOTIONAL AND MENTAL ABUSE as far as im concerned. I have
watched my mother be abused through these tactics by men, I have been abused by
such tactics also in my own relationships and I KNOW A NARCISSIST WHEN I SEE
ONE!
I
see people in business’s world wide act like this and all of the 'leaders'
scapegoat as much as possible when they are confronted. Just like governmental
leaders… CORRUPT THE LOT OF THEM!
What will
it take the entire collapse of your business (our society) for you to get it
through your head that YOU ARE ATTRACTING such decay yourself through your own
fear of it! My question to a whole array of business owners is WHERE IS YOUR
HUMILITY AND BACK BONE- YOUR BALANCE OF MIND AND HEART- if such is LACKING what
gives you the IDEA that you are capable of properly be MANAGING ANYTHING on the
equality wheel rather than the abuse- if you don’t even know how to navigate
these spectrum's of consciousness, and relationship building 101’s!? if you
can't even manage your own vehicle... DON'T even try to hold space for anyone
else because you will just corrupt their lives too as you crash and burn!
ive
worked at one too many corporate owned and small business managed practices
under others for far too long and all i've witnessed everywhere I go is the
amount of money, and time wasted on them training their employees... or for
independent contractors don't even get a say about the innovation of the
environment they volunteer their services- or even rent a room for outrageous
percentages. just to watch them walk out the door less than 6 months
later... because of POOR BUSINESS MANAGEMENT and greed. And those don’t give a
shit… because they are SO EASY “to replace”. Tell you what… my contractors…
WILL NOT BE EASY TO REPLACE AND I WOULD BE HEARTBROKEN IF THEY ABANDONED THE
BUSINESS!
I
have left one too many jobs... because I won't tolerate how 'the world works'
in business. Thus I’m stepping up to be one that IS INNOVATING BUSINESS AS WE
KNOW IT FOR THE GREATER GOOD. It's high time SOMETHING STARTED TO CHANGE and
SOMEONE STOOD UP AND MADE A STATEMENT AND LEFT A REVIEW OF WHAT IT TRULY HAS
TURN INTO!
THE
WORLD OF BUSINESS AND CONSUMERISM IS HELL!
i
am entirely sick of the corruption many do enact with and how they manipulate
'the sheeple'. They don't liberate them... or themselves... they just POKE THEM
and chase them in circles until they are too dizzy to defend themselves. These
individuals are SAVAGES against those truly innocent in their ignorance rather
than EDUCATING them..something’s gotta give. im ready to make a
difference. and doing so might create a massive tsunami of INDIFFERENCE.
but I'm okay with that.
Because
it's going to be a gigantic one.
I
cant keep witnessing and saying nothing as an activist of WORLD CHANGE AND
PEACEFUL REIGN and for all those of shadow frequency to recognize THE
HORRORS OF THEIR ACTIONS- even of those who play to be so entirely innocent-and
as a Siddhi they would be but they wont even accept gifts of innovation from
those who LOVE THEM UNCONDITIONALLY to see how we all are! I want to love
unconditionally. Be a spirit of generosity unto all.
Wanna
know the shadow of the 3rd gene key? Which is my pearl... what i have to offer
others and is a constant ‘struggle’ or challenge to face in my life... that is
the shadow of Chaos. I was born of it- and its the seed that will become a
volcano in ones heart in the near future and they will have no other option but
to contact me and say Namaste. I am bound and determined to succeed and help
others succeed in life too. But to create Synarchy... NOT ANARCHY. Equality not
abuse. These women will not be capable of escaping myself or my beloved in the
future; I will not be intimidated by them in the public collective
where we BOTH service the WHOLE because they choose to remain and
hold onto indifference's.
They
where a group who where attempting to show me how to be a proper business or
fair booth manager- i felt i needed guidance and began building relationship
but have only been allowed to open up a fraction of who i am and have been
doing the last three years. Even my ‘sister’ fell out of contact in fear and
victim that she has not fully gotten to experience my new vibration and its
thanks so much to HER therapy- not her mentors resistance to adopting me as
part of the team! Which took two years for her to say yes to all because she
didnt want to work with someone that reminded her of herself at a younger age.
Until now- and even now unless its business related and makes them money- They
dont make the time other than when im paying them to ‘care’ about me.
No
woman who is at their booth makes a fraction of the gross income made; given
promises that arent fulfilled unless ‘they pay’ or they tell them its their
creation if they mention anything of struggle in their own lives. These women
seem to assume they dont have the same problems or struggles but their actions
and words do not vibrate at a level any higher than the ones they are
attempting to train. Truth of the matter is right here in my hands- the keys-
and They spin death into them. They spun it into me and i am doing much work to
UNWIND it! As im attempting to do so they Drain and feed off of me and others-
i have pictures of my aura beginning a day with them and ending a day with
them!
Also
i have my beloved as witness when i had given permission for Yuru to be
extended to him remotely during our class by one of the women- and he felt the
vampiric intentions the second she connected to him. He left a resovore in his
solar plexus but had a sigil guarding anything beyond this space within him and
if she had access she would have drained his life force as she was me and many
others for the past 2 years (or longer shes been doing this over 14 years).
Such women are sucking off others wisdom and vibrance. Many people are doing
this and a stop codon must become of some of us to end it! They are nothing but
Old hags and worthy only of the two cents i will be leaving them with!
Im
Here to expose the ‘witches’ - for WE AS A TRINITY ARE GODDESS’S because EYE am
making it so! I will do everything in my power of the holy spirit and burning
bush within me to burn them with the holy violet fire and get them spinning
like a figure 8 in the codon ring of purification! I wish such EVIL to cease-
such entropy- decay- selfishness- greed and FEAR!I
forgive
all for THEY KNOW NOT WHAT THEY ARE DOING. Though we walk through the valley of
the shadows of death- i will fear NO EVIL- for Shakti is with me and
my inner Rod and Staff comfort me!
So i do
forgive and TRUST
I am that
I am
Word i am
word with this intention
I know who
i am
i know how
i serve
i am here
i am here
i am here
Eye Am
Distraction,
division, and diversion is only existent for the ego to separate and create an
identity! i wont continue sitting by silently. Ill leave the toxic space and as
a journalist /soon to be author i will expose the DARKNESS i witness around me
as i begin creating my own reality in LIVE SCRIPT. I fear it not for it is my
own creation- your own creation and the MUD that we can use to MOLD a vessel of
light into a radiant MERKABA DIAMOND BODY
The
thing is these women run a booth at the mind body and spirit expo in pueblo and
i felt such hierarchical expectation and attitudes that lacked spiritual
generosity to such a degree that i am not wanting to engage further under such
vibrations under their ‘rule’. I will as of next year just pay for my own booth
and see what other therapists i can get there with me to be part of Trinity
Alignment Therapeutics- i will be at the Celebration Expos in Denver (main one)
and may extend myself in the future to be at colorado springs and pueblo so
these women can’t really hide from me. I am shown vision being in the limelight
whether they wish to be kind or mean is up to them. I choose to hold true to
the Reiki way
Just for
today, I will not anger.
Just for
today, I will not worry.
Just for
today, I will be grateful.
Just for
today, I will do my work honestly.
Just for
today, I will be kind every living being.
this
makes me scared as i dont want the worlds expectations placed upon me to be or
present myself as a celebrity or Master (like Cho himself) a certain way and it
also takes me out of my shy and timid old pattern of insecure behavior by
stepping up and telling my story. I am taking action to break the patterns in
our lives that created discord to begin with and this alchemy and mystical path
is not for the faint of heart!
rather
than paying these women $600 that they came to collect on thursday 6/28 as i
sensed they would and was hoping to avoid but allas im forced to use my voice
to quicken them for the letter and two cents i am indeed going to be delivering
on monday. She came assuming we have a verbal agreement that i pay them $200 a
day for the three day course and spirit already made it clear I WAS NOT to pay
them a cent-a story to be foretold in the book or through me via questioning of
individuals but they got $100 which was my wish to respect and honor them with
their demand of money as equal exchange currency. i am and many others are not
allow to extend currency of the heart through massage or quantum touch or for
others bookkeeping and booth engagement/volunteer work- in exchange and ‘trade’
in their mind is ‘poverty mindset’ which is exactly where we will forever butt
heads. This mindset feels entirely betraying of them since such ‘trade’ is yuru
itself in action. I have nothing to create synergistic expansion with at this point
if their primary focus is their revenue stream.
all
money i now have has to be put into this private practice and i will be making
a donation go fund me account for anyone who wishes to make this dream a
reality a LOT quicker and help me get what i need to make my clinic a success -
we would appreciate all offerings from generous spirits that are willing to
give us such currency to make it a dream come true! I am investing in this
private practice with every dime i can muster up- to leave where i have spent
the past 3 years come November 2018 investing sweat equity into and building
many relationships to network with and waiting for the opportune moment to
spread my angel wings and fly
The
women i just spoke upon i got jobs there- and yet she questioned me on my
‘spirit of generosity’ while im freely with them on a weekend purely to offer
my culture this in and of itself. She said five years ago she muscle tested
whether she’s here to live a life offering that or not and SHE received a NO- i
dare her to retest. If its still a no- we have no reason to be acquainted.
She
challenge my ability of ‘presence’ by making her tone of voice so quiet i cant
even understand a thing shes every trying to say so i have to continually ask
‘WHAT?!’ And feel like a moron! They cant seem to understand i had injury
during childhood that took a good percentage of my hearing away in my left ear
and its hard to strain my right to listen to people who demand using a low tone
to make themselves look enlightened! I have learned to use my eyes like a set
of Binoculars. I am someone who KNOWS the importance of looking rationally at
the broader picture. I analyze most of the things i come across, using my eyes
more than my ears-I HAD TO ADAPT BECAUSE I AM PARTIALLY DEAF- so I am rather
skilled also in "lip reading"... and i know when the tongue is lying.
So i have given these women a massive dose of their own poison's. I am not Mary
Poppins and yes the suger helps the medicine go down but ITS ALSO RE-FINED. So
instead of me 'owing' any money... they are 'fined' by me the equal amount in
return for their negligence and abuse. aka their MASSIVE MESS OF OUR HEARTS
thinking they have tapped into the greatest secrets of the YOU AND I VERSE'S!
There is no equality wheel with them, they will just tell you to shut up or
kick you out of their house telling you that YOU aren't free. Instead of suing
them; Id rather show and represent what UNCONDITIONAL LOVE OF SOURCE truly is.
I extend Shakti
I
waited around for 6 months+ longer then i had to to get to know these
individuals and wait for a divine sign because it was made aware to me i will
be expected to ‘move’ and i would be making such in my career before 2019. I
was patient- sort of- I honestly have a difficult time 'waiting' for people to
'see the light' and get their own heads out of their abyssal assholes. I mean
come on... this 'lightworking' and concepts of the MER KA BA is COMMON
SENSE to me. but that died out of the human race a LONG time
ago...aaaannnndd... welcome my sarcastic sense of humor. maybe
"comedian" will be added to my list of success's.
I
have survived; myself; through the same old mediocre bull shit and all
aside of getting heify with a few people who would rather live in their state
of victim hood rather than rise above and heal their lives a year ago, i
managed to GROW to be humble. Patience is a virtue after all. I challenged
my family also, and this book will take my clients through almost every detail
of this metamorphosis i experienced and must share to the world.
I
grew to feel as if i had wasted my time and was not receiving back even a
fraction of what i was putting out in manifestation power. I feel at this place
i work that i do not earn what i feel i am worth nor can i change the prices
and upgrade the old booking and scheduling system that the owner out of her own
fears of it ‘making the family focused facility go out of hand and crazy or the
latter of loosing very long term clientele to return of she raises service
prices for the fact that services are so cheap or in their mind ‘affordable’.
Once upon a time entry was $5 and a massage $11- i hear one too many
‘whine’ over paying their therapists for far too long!
so
in the past 3 years there i got opportunity to detox and listen to some of the
most profound victim consciousness of women today and women who would rather
bath in their emotions (fat) as a superficial whales rather than go to the
depths and loose the ‘weight’! I love them as their souls are voluptuous but
they are not treating their own bodies, minds and souls (hearts) with the damn
respect their temple deserves. Their 'fat' shows how much the HATE themselves
on a cellular level. how 'dead' they have become. And if such lifestyle choices
continue... at least I'm setting a limit and stating I won't die right along
side with you by choice. I'll make 'money' somewhere else because THAT is not
the focus here.
I
wont sacrifice anymore. Nor will i allow ANYONE to be a victim to such
pettyness! That is sympathy; we can be empathic beings but SYMPATHY WILL ONLY
ALIGN YOU TO THEIR VICTIM STORIES.
I
will only work on the women or men willing TO DO THE HOMEWORK so im not
wasting all my energy when they come for alignment. Its a waste of MY SOUL AND
TOUCH to be a temporary band aid for your pain! This is where people will see
any 'attitude' from me. There is a level where I feel taken advantage of over
the years and so many people are of poverty consciousness that it has been
entirely the largest challenge in my life to escape it myself and step up to
make a difference.
if
you truly don't want to make a difference... then let it dawn on you that
loosing
10 pounds out of 200 is nothing to brag about; in doing so you might just
collapse the table while you are telling me I give the best massages in the
world 20 minutes later
...
I attempt to catch your heavy ass while it falls- but I am not "strong
enough physically" to even DO SO. So i have to literally let you fall and
risk you injuring your head. nonetheless the outcome is this:
That
you're present enough to avoid the Karmic Wheel when it's about to hit you in
the face: or be completely ignorant of it.
Now
this is an actual experience i had recently with a real woman- but i didn't SAY
these things to her; as i contemplated the symbology behind the entire
encounter this is what came to my awareness.
And
who know's if I will see her before I am gone from there for women's days to
invite her to my new private practice because she is a women i see a fire
within that WOULD want to shed this weight and do it with STYLE! I have a table
that is my own and has never collapsed on me unlike the one I was forced to use
in the bathhouse. Such table
was
left behind by the male therapist who changed rooms and he abandoned me with it
to 'clean up and throw in the dumpster' (I hadn't already because IT WASNT MY
PROPERTY; but following this traumatic event of DUMPING ONE OF MY MOST WEIGHTY
CLIENTS ONTO THE FLOOR and i felt HORRIBLE because it happened 3 minutes before
the end of her session!
However
embarrassing it was I still charged her the full amount for the session ($52.00
for 90 minutes) because it was not anyones fault and my time and pressure was
still just as valuable. And this was a lesson she needed to learn- I am just
the transparent miracle worker touching the DNA and watching the ego react in
the most peculiar of ways. And thus i am always in eternal delight because I'm
always laughing. Not at them... but in soul perspective... our human ego's who
hold onto such identity as it does... are too entertaining not to.
Such
was a Karmic manifestation of
her
own ego and spirit being Shakti upon her to send message that "Hey you
have some shit to deal with... and Gaia can help you get grounded with
that!"
If
there is even a potential of this "chaos" to abrupt it is obvious one
needs to make a change in their vibration and thoughts and to begin holding
them selves accountable to shed the emotional bull shit they hold onto or
stress over and focus on their goals with sheer determination to succeed
achieving them!
I
faced all my own PAIN AND TRAUMA in this place- so much so the only time i
swear it ever got smudged was a year ago after I BLEW UP over my attachment and
judgments towards my ex husband. This same woman who demands money from me did
somewhat help me break this barrier but claimed 8 minutes of this technique is
worth $250 but she would do it for me for free if i was serious
about
dropping it then and there- and i was so i said YES. I didnt see the effects of
it (and she honestly in the moment pissed me off i went home angrier than
before because i knew i created my own reality but that is ALL she would throw
at me when i found myself to be blocked by my ex husband as i actually was
making the change! Her repeat of this when i knew i was doing it only made me
go into a sever bout of depression. I went through a few momentary dips but
each one made me stronger. This women would call such ‘a wedgy’ and so here i
am- my thanks to her is not paying money but giving her one right back- because
thats what fucked me up enough to motivate me to get my shit strait in the
head! And now that it is... i cannot be manipulated.
I
faced many mirrors and deep seeded fears of lack and survival and as i
waited for the unfolding i become neutral with it all. I leave with calm and
peace in my heart- fully innocent as i leave a seed of chaos that the gift of
innovation will only be seen by those with the eyes to see and ears to hear and
step up to make a change for the better. If not- im out of harms way of the
Yellowstone eruption about to go off- at least until winter when im at the
bathhouse for the two open sundays per month- that is all i can offer with my
spirit of generosity to the collective there. If they want all that I AM- then
they can come visit me and get attunement alignments.
For
me time doesnt really exist (and thus some clients may just have to get used to
the fact i may be 5-15 mins behind some days so their patience and expectation
with ‘time’ will be tested greatly) and the paradox of being in the now is very
obvious and so is the fact that i have a momentum to manifest some pretty
magical things and i am not going to throw such an opportunity as this
away.
Point
is i am following my intuition- innate genius- and all unfolding is because of
my Higher self- that which unites us all into oneness. No matter who you are.
My Higher self when I asked it what it's 'name' or 'title' was... responded
more times than i can count... as "Trinity". So ... Here i Kymberly,
present to you embodiment of my higher source known as TRINITY.
this
mindless chaos (not intentional for greater growth as i use) is what these
women are stirring the pot with of their own ignorant egos. I can thank them
for one thing- such is just helping me break free of my own and the resistance
ive had to step fully into my own radiance, purpose and lifes work. Fact is i
WOULD give them $600 right now if i had it; but all the clients they have now
are thanks to me- we have equal exchange already happening between us and
‘my time’ given contemplating this for a month already paid for it all so iI
have no debt or overdue balance with them in currency of any kind. If they want
more money i do not barter with this currency for a reason with them because
that will only enable their vamperic patterns. I offer an upgrade of Yuru- I
give it innovation with a Midas Touch
If
you believe you are worth $200 for one hour; So am I so please have at least
$100 in hand and then we'll be even.
my
heart is open to ‘trade’ our services in the future and such will be free to
receive between the both when they too remove their attitudes and 'knowing'.
when they take off their own heads- we can sit down and have a talk. I am not
here to lie to them- to avoid them- to hide; but I do demand they uphold the
principles of courtesy, fairness, generosity, inclusiveness, Integrity,
Patience, and Transparency then we can begin to build a REAL
relationship...whether that be business related or personal.
when
one says they will come in three weeks to get a massage and receive ME i hold
them to it- and if they CHOOSE NOT TO- and make me pay $50 for services I was
under the impression we would "do a trade for"... This rather
agitated me. They do not wish to receive what I have to offer so I simply
mirror them what they are feeding everyone else so that they taste their own
medicine with a dash of my RE-FINED sugar. And karma takes care of them for me
(there is a reason their dog died)
since
they are choosing to spin on that wheel and at this point they are just
enjoyment of watching hampsters on a wheel like a cat would. I've done and got
OUT of the damn maze; I am not in no way going to allow anyone to drag me back
into that again! I am not a mouse and neither do I SPEAK LIKE ONE- my voice is
loud and was always meant to be! I may have to witness these individual kill
another animal; or maybe they will choose to change their minds and vibrations;
and save a life they seem to eternally boast about giving them joy and NEEDING
to survive.
Attachment
curse's SUCK I learned this within the past 7 years but the gift of this is
that wedgies unfold in due time and then everyone receives their piece of the
pie months later.
I'll
be as cruel as them; that if they don't choose then this is their ‘own
death’ to deal with and I won't be around much longer nor will have much
"time to wait around for them" because I'm about to get super busy
where as... they have had the past 2 years to make a change in their own lives;
and I HAVE been actually re scripting my story- not just writing a book of
boasting of fake “great joy”- I see my paradox shifting but I see them standing
in the same place.
Hey
you two; you're creating your own life- take a look at this; I'm on a mountain
peak chanting OM NAMAHA SHIVAYA witnessing every sunrise and sunset from dusk
until dawn. What are you doing? walking your dog and sending death energy to
anyone who opposes you or tells you that you're full of greed.
i
have nothing more to offer other than delight with the body and i think my
touch is worth an hour (or $200 also) with gadgets they acquired and now that i
know of their existence I will make them manifest in my own 'healing light
clinic" for the enjoyment of anyone who wishes to Incorporated it into
their lives. It will also be offered at HALF THE RATE- they ever would even
think to grace upon humanity.
someday
i will afford to have all on my own- not because I pride fully obtain it of my
own means and for selfish means of gain but because Spirit gives me faith to
know it will bring me people who will want to help build a greater dream
together and pitch in for it! I'm just waiting for them to hit the donation
button and start receiving holistic Care and be guided through holistic means
of health that would be best for their bodies at this time. (Diet is
irrelevant)
Stop
buying into the notion that ALL your limitations... or thoughts of death... ARE
TRUE! I will AWAKEN the codon Ring of Life And Death is is my birthright
because I ALREADY went through those wormholes!
I
AM seeking mutually satisfying interactions even if i don't get what i want- I
am accepting change, and know when i am becoming a doormat! I AM A GATEWAY... I
have keys to MANY doors and wormholes through the BLUE APPLE OF MY EYE; this
represents my Ajna, my third eye... my pearl...and it is very open... Peacocks
follow me for a reason because the represent the BLUE PEARL.
and
yes...
Birds
surround me because I am the one leading the flock as a Phoenix DOVE (and one
of my beloved best friends will be joining in my private practice and she is my
'lost dove' who is worth taking a drive to the mountains to visit)
The
Owl forever is one of my guardians and i work in tandem with an Owl Shaman. I
am a Fox Shaman... that is the medicine I use and that is why my logo
represents Trinity Alignment Therapeutics with such. But All of the Animal and
insect kingdoms speak to me and I dance with them. I see their messages... and
the Dream Arc they form together. It's them who see my needs and fill my needs
for conscious awareness and keep me present and authentic.
all
doors that are opening is thanks to my intention of awakening those around me
into their greatest potential to create an economic partnership where by
ALL partners benefit; not just two.
I
take gratitude but I don't take "credit"... My will is unified with
Divine Will and I have a pure heart.
I
may stutter and show signs of dyslexia (confusion) does not mean you can prey
upon that 'weakness' and my insecurity when i do make attempt to use
my voice in self assurance but with a stutter (because I AM AFRAID...everyone
shuts me down and hence why i repeatedly express that "I AM TOO MUCH FOR
PEOPLE"- and yet they keep saying " you can never be too much you are
safe"... however why did i NOT FEEL SAFE?! I am not lying; this is their
own perception of outdated concept's in which their ego has held onto and
the cell's need reprogramming to script a NEW STORY and create a new memory.
Just
because someone holds space for a group does not give one a hierarchical
right to abuse others within that circle: and give themselves permission
to extend such abuse to others in sake of enlightenment.
I
have had this autistic problem since I was a young child. I will in the future
be looking into working with and counseling (while also offering holistic
massage and reiki) to such ANGELS as I am in hopes that i can deter them from a
future of programmed self sabotage and victim consciousness that may begin to
become memory of abandonment, trauma, rejection, blame, shame or guilt- or
attaching to any of the fears they will be tempted to succumb to when
they come face to face with such a cruel world as we witness around us.
The
only way to change anything is to become the change. the only way to help the
planet and humanity as we know it is to go within and find peace in our own
hearts... and one by one the world will bloom into a new radiant Eden on Gaia.
Then the Autistic's will be truly understood for what they are as
miracles.
I
am done with bullies.With intellectuals. With 'know it alls" and anyone
who wants to proclaim a single ounce of ENTITLEMENT or ownership to ANYTHING
based off of their education or LACK OF assumption that they 'dont need any
because i arrogantly depend only on myself for answers'.
There
is a fine balance and with duality of this dimension and its current collective
vibrations: bringing both into a neutrality of Oneness and evolve into
Universal Love will be the legacy I leave behind if I truly do succeed as this
is the intentions within my own DNA... to make a reality before I die. I truly
will be a tree of life, wisdom and knowledge... and if you try to cut me
down... i'll swing a branch at you...
The
great thing about autistic people... (some are self functioning and others need
assistance... i am in the middle of this as is my beloved and my two children)
is that to us Shaman's... they are the greatest of teachers and truly the most
free of us all because they battle not with an identity and truly embody the
mind of a child well into adult hood. THIS IS NOT A BAD THING. As the Gene key
of Innocence is MY PEARL- this is the greatest gift to bring to one and all.
Seeing the world through the eyes of the children.
Autistics
have too many persona's and are far too OPEN to embody just one. That's is why
they are so unique...why they seem they can't be controlled. Because guess
what...we can't. and it doesn't matter how much medication you shove down our
throats... label us as "schizophrenic" or belittle us with terms like
"multi personality disorder". When will humanity realize... THERE IS
NOTHING WRONG WITH US.... the belief in WRONGNESS is what creates HELL.
NOW
LET US bring about great change in peoples lives; into your own life.
There
is a reason that SUICIDE is hitting an all time high... and mental wards barely
having vacancies because those who ARE awakening are being OPPRESSED that
than seen as EQUALS to the other's who claim to be 'genius's and have degrees
of whatever'. YOUR DEGREE DOESN'T MATTER. Neither does my certificate on my
wall stating i did "such amount of study in any one subject of
interest". I am so much more than a massage therapist... and a degree
won't change the innate intelligence i was born with and I don't need something
on my wall flaunting that "i achieved an education". EVERYONE SHOULD
BE ABLE TO FREELY!
when
we try to find outlets to share what is happening to us and the METAMORPHOSIS
we are experiencing in our bodies-and there is no where to go; we get told
we're MAD, CRAZY, and mentally ill. WRONG.
Whether
i was 'on board' with this destiny before me or not... it was to become of my
own human design regardless. In my experiences alone i would have been driven
to become a "therapist" and I have always been NATURAL at it. Now
that i understand my life's work and purpose... I don't need nothing else to
further PROVE "my potential and gifts/talents". Maybe people should
at this point simple trust that im not am imbecile and can think for myself and
act as a minister upon the masses. It is MY FUTURE and it is already been shown
to me for a very long time, that i will work with autistic children and other
adults who struggle with addiction, mental illness, and abuse of all kinds
(whether that be physical, mental or emotional). And i will help them HEAL THEIR
LIVES. I can't reach such a spectrum of people staying in a little ole
bathhouse twice a week all day long when all im able to do there is burn up
during the summer and freeze during the winter and bend over women who
literally have NO want to do anything more than what they are to thrive. And
those who do... will follow me to my Private Practice and won't mind actually
honoring me with a currency that is more equal in quality of exchange for the
transformational touch i have to offer.
So
I will be departing from this collective of women. The two in particular in
which i leave with a concerned hesitancy because I care about every therapist
there that they are hooking into-through my quantum workings and transparent
involvement- i hope they understand at this point that they got more than $700
with my love currency and so i think they got a bargain. I love everyone that
comes in and out of that bathhouse no matter their shape or size- and i DO NOT
WANT to hear another 'rumor' (no wonder they came to hate gossip and tried to
'teach us a lesson about it' in Pueblo) that THEY ARE NEGATIVELY EFFECTING
SOMEONE'S ENERGY BODY through FEAR TACTICS- these are NOT NECESSARY for the
'detoxification' process that people come to them for assistance.
I
will not hesitate to inform the business owner of the corruption at large if it
doesn't come to a stop immediately.
If
they want more currency from myself - a new contract will have to be signed or
else its a simple buh bye
one
must CHOOSE the new vibration.
If
they do; I hope to receive a text saying
‘I
am choosing this new vibration will you share time with me in your new office
so i can in kind receive the gift of equilibrium so once again harmony can
be obtained between the group”. If not- again i have little birdies everywhere
keeping their eyes out for ANY CORRUPT MOVEMENT beyond this moment... and
individuals creating such toxicity... will be brought to the managements
attention of whom's facility they are allowed to operate their independent
practice at this current time
After
such I would only expect that proper motions of action will be taken being the
following
Addressment
of abusive attitudes towards multiple practitioners (god knows how many
clients) and proper "firing" if it is not otherwise taken with
accountability and acknowledged accordingly
further
servicing under said facility will come with newly innovated guidelines; Guidelines
by which the following principles are to be extended between every one of the
independent contractors and transparently with the clients!
***Do not make a jokes about death
or seed fear into one another of any kind. Always uphold and focus upon:
Courtesy, Fairness, Generosity,
Inclusiveness, Integrity, Patience, and Transparency.***
any
breach of this agreement will terminate their opportunity to be part of the
community that has been there for a very long time and to maintain it as a
stable unit- such protocols must be enacted amung the Society. The
business manager may also decide not to “get involved”- there are many “timelines
and parallel realties” to take into account but…
If
they choose to not even have to attract all that other drama- they can arrange
a meeting with myself, Malachi and “the Charge”. this meeting will be to
celebrate with me and 'will be free'. Such will be a time set aside to not
waste upon stupid criticisms but of delight and to laugh at all the
stupidity up until this point- of the no point- to the no matters - of word and
for us all to begin having right understanding to the light language ready to
awaken in us all!
Please
Realize I AM the cookie... and im about to crumble on everyone! But some think
they are the milk and honey and the cookie will get lost in the half full cup
of Mucus (sickness) if they arent careful and choose to have impeccability
with tone and word - as to them ‘this is a sign of truth, and even they stated
one “has to honor what is in print”… well… I’m putting my entire LIFE into
print… and I’m hiding NOTHING because I HAVE NO DESIRE to hide.
the
next time they speak to me I would hope they change their approach. So far
their own tones and choice of words- has created an entire MESS of things- so
much so one woman during the yuru weekend the first two days spilled two
glasses... one of coffee and the next day a shake. And she said ‘hmm looks like
everyone is cleaning up my messes for me this weekend’ especially her
girlfriend (who is the main detox one who works at the spa) who was cleaning up
her messes because she couldn't being busy ‘teaching’ or running the workshop
for us and ‘had a time frame to end at 12pm’. Also a little birdy told me along
the way that they heard this woman saying something that "massage therapy
is useless; it doesn't do anything it just moves it around"... I entirely
after 10 years of BEING ONE- BEG TO DIFFER. And i ask "what is YOUR
PURPOSE being in a bathhouse that makes most of its revenue off of the
independent massage therapists and body workers. Ya this woman who LOVES the
word FUCK... can go as her own glasses rims state and 'FCUK' HER OWN VAGINA
(she loves that word too) - I personally don't see myself as one and i
certainly don't need to be treated like a whore as I was by far too many men in
my life already! This shows me how Femininely IMBALANCED one is- and so i write
my letters of pressure. And a mission statement that will bring great pressure
upon many.
I
won't be told to 'stop rabetting' by anyone; stop acting as if you're some damn
entitled Madam of the place- you wouldn't even know it existed without MUAH!
And the business owner already banned you from it once- probably would've take
much other than a letter to convince her to make that an eternal promise. Or you
can make a few calls that don't make you sound entirely full of yourself and
pig headed... offer me a pearl I'm willing to bargain for... and I will no
longer have to throw my own radiant pearls to swine. Then we might be able to
have a decent conversation... oh and begin to build a relationship that someday
maybe one of your retreats and workshops will be WORTH $2,000 and you
will have manifest people to service who have such wealth and not be peddling
in pond scum of broken women who are neck deep in victim consciousness at some
Denver Spa. Now I am taking actions because i don't need to settle for that
vibration. My HOME is where my heart is and my heart HURTS around you. That is
my honest truth. Until you stop telling me I'm creating this reality... and not
taking accountability for what YOU are creating... because I KNOW my ROLE... i
have journeyed every curve of my own BEING... and I don't need validation from
anyone to say I AM FREE.
I
can help one perfect their words-their affirmations to manifest miracles! To be
impeccable with their language. I dont need these women educating me on how to
speak such language- i do already if they would engage more CARE-FULLY with me.
I want to KNOW people to help them fix themselves- i cant do it for them- and neither
can some outside "source or angelic being"... You and ONLY YOU must
reclaim your inheritance as a DIVINE BEING.
Me
of all the dyslexic alive- the one most afraid to be a public speaker or use
her voice when told to shut up- yes i speak light language through autowriting
and then reading of the word or singing of a song. I tried to say my awareness
is MASSIVE- is not my ego and im not full of bull shit. I have my husband with
me everywhere for a reason because he is my strong authoritative voice when i
cant muster one up- and HE CAN channel this language in other tongues
physically! I carry books around so that i can even GIVE THE WORDS to the
vibrations i rabbit in passionate attempts to try to explain otherwise and
sound like an idiot! So people take me as such. my beloved speaks this language
of light in totality and reminds us what it was like to be immortal and as we
remember who we are as creators- One with Source- we can finally UNIFY and
continue with fun and games, free as little rabbits not needing fear if a
ravaged dog, bird of prey, or any other beast is going to bite our heads off
and be mean or not! Im here to show what meanness is vs niceness. It seems I am
facing this shadow both in the online meta space and in my own reality... being
challenged to evolved greater into Universal Love
lowering
your voice to match the deep tone of my beloved when you are a woman- shows
sheer insecurity and that one felt intimidated by another’s talents that
surpass their own! This is what the ‘yuru master’ did when she met my beloved
for the first time and her girlfriend was appalled i requested if he could
possibly come to the fair the weekend prior. These women avoid him like hes a
plague of ‘death’- hes just a sin eater- and he sees the darkness consuming their
light soon to extinguish anyways and then he retrieves the soul and
releases it from the avatar when the body finally dies. When and where or how-
depends upon their own resistance to the awakening process here for this planet
and the repercussion of choosing to remain ignorant to the change that is
happening and going to continue happening- until humanity is annihilated again
or - they wake up and see it is themselves creating the discord and ‘evil’ and
that yes- they too are creating their own reality
lots
of it is focused upon money and thus they are starting to see a dwindling down
of clients- as i remove my arm of Grace around them and place it over others
who where told they where going to die by the words spoken through this old
hags mouth- speaking projection of HER OWN fears-
I
know a handful of others who where influenced by her- and they too felt the
reality of such a curse spoken over them of 'unworthiness and lack and felt
encased in a fog of stupidity but when away from her feeling completely clear
and empowered again.
I
have found the seed of cancer inflicting many at this time- and a cell is only
cancerous when one does no trust in the Divine or their own ‘safety’- when one
is in the survival mentality- and i can promise people- ‘cancer’ never showed
up in my body before i met her and her dog- though it was a future concern as
my family and relatives all struggle with such dis-ease and ‘surviving it but i
refused to fear and was beginning to asses a life change so it didnt become of
me also. I do have heart problems- and its hard to breath at times- but this
doesnt weaken me.
my
last LIFE SYSTEM scan with her showed cancer becoming encased around my heart -
in the actual facial tissue that wraps around the heart! I had been waiting two
years to join ‘forces’ with this woman and change peoples lives- but she wants
to be the ‘ring leader’. How can one lead a life as a programming partner when
they dont even know what codon ring needs to be addressed!? As i said this
woman came to collect money from me at the end of the day- not to just check as
an empathic healer- but i knew she wanted one thing only- that was money. I
told her she would receive ‘it’ on monday. She left and returned to ask why i
never called her girlfriend back... i wished to say so much but all i could
muster up was a white lie that id make time to talk to them both soon- ive been
busy- but that we did have things we needed to talk about. I tried to be
honest as i could be without opening a can of worms before my last client. The
encounter with her however really sent a lot of anxiety through me- i shouldn't
be ‘afraid’ to talk to them but the fact i am speaks for itself that i can't
trust them. And i listen to my body. Im not the only one to fall ill after
engaging with her or being around her. I came to realize during my 8 pm a
client named kim (my name) said she has breast cancer- is getting treatment and
i noticed a butterfly tattooed on her left hip/top butt and spirit spoke to me
saying
‘Fear
not my beloved- you are safe. you are recovering too and the feminine yin is
rising within you- you will not die- be strong and fly through this storm with
the gift of the 8th key - Style!!! You are no longer a victim to the mundane.
this is you journeying into the channel of originality- do it with glee so you
can breath again! the codon ring of water is blessed upon you by the Shekina!
You are holding it all together with exquisiteness and coming into the diamond
of self realization for the purpose to walk as and be an example unto others!
May you now become the water over earth that is needed to bring Competence to
the surface of many and dare them to receive the bounteousness you have to
offer them of Grace that you have obtained by showering mercy, forgiveness and
compassion upon yourself first and therefor to many others with a purified
heart!"
My
invitation now is this- there are MANY WOUNDED healers amungst us... and
I am guardian of them all. I know when I see one and I extend keys. let us
find equilibrium and sing in praise that WE ARE free and eternally connected to
Source no matter the movement we make with the body. But moving the body FEELS
GOOD, because it gets the DNA flowing and breaking up! Breathing, tantra,
dancing, chanting, singing, painting, drawing, playing an instrument or even
sleeping are the greatest joys in life! Enjoying the sun anytime of the day and
the moon as it phases are magical moments. making effort of putting our feet in
the dirt and creating a twin heart with Gaia- are all conscious things to do to
remain present and in balance with our own Being.
I
will help all make this a daily practice in their lives as i also step forward
into the sun and allow it to fill me up with quintessence. I chose during the
Yuru weekend to spin all the judgment of the past 3 years - against myself or
ANYONE- out of my body. But this woman is now making me spin back into
constriction and i am not allowed to express the freedom ive obtained and
connection to source- but wasnt able to share this because she doesnt believe
obtaining such a Siddhi state is possible! Regardless of HER limitations of the
mind- I gleefully danced on the church hill with their reincarnated puppy and
we jumped in Joy into the new Golden Ray of the dawn! as my soul echoes through
every being that stood before me- i witnessed a miracle in motion! All while
paying notice and awareness of the the fear and shadow archetypes we hold to
bugs of all kinds beneath our feet- or who bite us for no logical reason! But
there is one and i spoke to them about it all- every animal plant and insect-
even the Sun that snuck behind the clouds to show my own feelings as i am the
storm bringing and boy did a storm come in when the weekend was over- a storm i
didnt even know was brewing up as the grass prickled my feet making them
go numb and i surrendered to allow the raindrop dews hit my cheeks even though
the cold takes me out of my comfort bubble- i allow such to be blown up. Such
was a cocoon blocking me from obtaining my dreams! I was ready to be reborn as
a butterfly!
Bugs
are here to teach us great lessons and bring us glorious blessings if we hold
them gently with tenderness in our hearts. If we dont you may find they haunt
or visit you in your dreams- with a whole array of others in the animal
kingdom! if you flick or shoo them away onto the floor they may find it
necessary to have a vendetta against you and a little spider like the little
black one that bit my butt and told me he was going to after i rudely swept him
off my bed- will not hesitate to teach your a vibrational lesson in regards to
your own frequency in any moment!
This
little dude fell directly on me and landed on my left arm- startled me and i
brushed it away- then it landed on the bed and started to charge me instantly!
I felt its intention of ‘attack’- and as a giant i was very mean and in a
moment of irritation and misunderstanding i blew him onto the floor as the
codon ring of the whirlwind passed through me! I heard his little voice ‘ima
get you when you are sleeping for that- i just wanted to say hi!’ And i woke up
with three little bite marks on my right bum.
This
is pretty much how i felt ‘attacked and brushed off’ by these women. I feel
ignored and im just trying to kiss you on the cheek- or find time to!
“Little Miss Muffet.
Sat on a tuffet,
eating her Curds and whey;
Along came a spider,
Who sat down beside her,
And frightened Miss Muffet away”
They
are Miss Muffet- i am the spider. However at times they where the spider and i
was Miss Muffet. I can willing atone for when i was Miss Muffet- and i believe
i have been. Now as a spider weaving a web for a greater dragonfly dream- i
hope not to frighten these Miss’s away.
Okay
so gist to this story- this is my paradoxical predicament with these very
women! I was a white spider- the one i saw during that weekend in their healing
room and it was above my table watching me- and one black fly buzzed about on
the window. the spider who bit me at home was black one and reminded me to be
mindful of when i am playing the victim- and the other night being even
temporarily afraid when normally im not- i got bit in the ass for it! Fear IS
POWERFUL! But so is love
I
was now weaving a web of lies- but total transparency. Hence the white color of
the spider encountered over the weekend. I chose to remain with intentions not
to pay another dime but after further meditation and contemplation upon the
entire drama fest- would pay them a letter of my two cents and That was Zen
this is Tao now about it. I did this To prove how present i am already to see
and cut through bull shit. I did not do this in judgment or with arrogance and
am hoping to be a way shower of a new form of arrogance- a more respectable and
AUTHENTIC forms- i brought with the gift of Totality and it was preconceived
labeled as a ‘conclusion’ and told to shut up so it couldnt even be spoken
further upon! I refuse to throw my pearls to swine. My impeccability comes
through letters as i learn to speak such poetic truth with my voice in time.
The
coded transmissions i received at this moment is that the feminine is rising
and i received it through the butterfly on kim who has cancer. such was a
symbol that much fear still is also present within me of this being a reality
for my own physical vessel if i dont take my health seriously. Its not just time
for myself but many around me i pay witness to- to begin reprogramming the DNA
to heal their life. my ass hole BITCH CUNT of a masculine ego and codon ring of
fire has a potential- if i dont remain balanced- of making a massive chaotic
storm and whirlwind of a problem when it gets in the way of the feminine codon
ring of water and tries to over power it. Which isn’t possible such water doesn’t
have a carrier oil for the fire to effect it- even then water over powers fire
BY NATURE! There is much pressure upon everyone involved with me because i am
ushering in the 8th key as i am daring to be Divine!
“One
of the deepest fear is emerging from the eighth GENE key is the fear of
success. This fear is reinforced through its programming Partner), the 14th shadow
of compromise. You compromise your dreams not because you fear you will fail,
but because you know that to succeed you will have to rebel against the whole
of society and its expectations of you.”- 8th Gene Key
All
therapists who I employ as independent contractors or refer one to will be
verified PURE HEARTS and be incorporating concepts of the human design and
the Gene Keys into their own lifestyles. Whether that be for meditation,
mental/emotional wellness and self being or Yuruing practice; they will find
alignment through its vast wisdom of the spectrums of consciousness we are
accessing!
Come little children ill take the
away; Into a world of enchantment; Come little children the times come to play;
Here in my garden of shadows; Follow sweet children; Ill show thee the way;
Through all the pain and the sorrow; Weep not poor children; For life is this
way; Murdering beauty and passions; Hush now dear children; It must be this way;
Too weary of life and deceptions; Rest now my children; For soon we’ll away; Into
the calm and quiet; Come little children; Ill take thee away; into a
land Of enchantment;
Come
little children
The times
come to play
Here in my
garden
Of shadows
-Erutan
Come Little Children-
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